Saturday, August 14, 2010

It has been a long, long while

I don't know what happened but for some reasons, they temporarily shut down my blog. Because I'm not updating for so long? hahaha Anyway, here I am, back again for so many kwentos and I don't know where to start. Warning: this entry might have so many flight of ideas.. hehe

I've been so busy these past few months with work, family issues, and friends.

Let's start with work. Since they gave me a secretary visa for the meantime, my job is more on paperworks. Meaning I do the accounts, coordinate with the bank and insurance people, answer emails, give receipts to patients, and answer telephone calls (mainly). I find my job a little bit more stressful than being a nurse because I DEAL WITH MONEY. And if there's anything wrong with my computation then I'll be a dead meat. Having a foreigner boss also adds to my stress. He is very moody! Sometimes he shouts for no reason at all, and sometimes he's very sweet and kind. He's very fickle-minded. And most of the time I can't understand his barok english! But who cares, he's my employer and he's giving me money. Woohoo! :P

About my family issues, it's still about my parents. They're still thinking about having a legal separation. And my father is still the one who's trying to bind them. He's still trying to fix this marital issues. They're also planning to go here in Dubai this coming Eid and I'm really, really hoping they are in good terms when they come here.

About my friends here, I'm very thankful I have wonderful people around me. I'm having a lot of fun here in Dubai because of them. ü

To be continued...

Thursday, July 1, 2010

The Girl taken for granted

She doesn't know you that much but she gave you a chance.

She's not ready to meet someone yet but she gave you her trust.

She waits for your call in the afternoon even if she has something more important to do.

She waits for your call in the wee hours of the night even if she's already tired.

She waits for your text, hoping that you ate well and you got home safely.

She stays in front of the computer waiting for you to go online.

She sings for you just to make you happy.

She makes you laugh with her crazy stories and jokes.

She listens to your stories and remembers every details of them.


She gets paranoid whenever you wouldn't call her.

She doesn't get mad even if she knows deep inside, you're just making excuses.

She still talks to you even if she wanted to avoid you.

She believed you when you said you will never ever leave her and you'll always be at her side.

She still hopes that everything will be fine and you will realize her worth.


But despite all her efforts and heartaches, you still left her and taken her for granted.

But still, she never got mad when you said goodbye...

She even told you to take care of yourself because you mean a lot to her...

She just cried and hoped that someday, she will forget all these things so she can be truly happy again.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

It's been a while

I miss you blog, super!

So what's been happening to me these last few weeks? Since I'm sleepy and tired as of the moment, I'll just update in bullets.. hehe tamad style :)

*I'm learning how to cook! Oh well, not really.. haha. But I now perfected (almost) how to peel and cut onions and garlics. Plus green mangoes too. And yeah, my fingers are still complete! :)

*I'm eating vegetables more often now since I'm leaving in an accommodation. And would you believe that it's my first time to try Togue (bean sprouts), Monggo, and Tortang talong (without meat)? Haha Poor me, right? That's because I'm a meat lover ever since childhood. But I'm terribly missing hotdogs and maling. :(

*I'm now adjusted with my work. Somehow I can manage on my own now. But of course, sometimes I still ask for help.. hehe. By the way, my job here in Dubai is nurse/receptionist/secretary/insurance coordinator/cleaner/care taker/guard. Too much to handle, eh?

*I met new friends and it's making my stay in Dubai more fun! Special shout-out to Ate Minie whom I met last friday. Thank you again for the nice company, Ate. :) I promised that I won't call you Miss Minie anymore.. haha.

*I've realized that it's not okay to be kind and polite to everybody. Sometimes, you really have to fight for your rights. You don't have to smile and just agree to every single word a person, even your superior, tells you. If they're telling you to do things that you know are wrong, then don't do it. And you don't have to say sorry always especially if it's not your fault. We have to be tough in this cruel world.

*I'm really thankful to our technology today, especially to facebook, ym, skype, roaming services, and of course, blogs.. haha. I'm able to keep in touch with my friends in the Philippines and all over the world because of these.

*Finally, I've realized that it's difficult to be a daughter (who's living away from her parents), granddaughter (who's living away from her grand parents), niece (to her aunt who's having health problems but doesn't want to visit a doctor), employee (whose legal papers are still in process and who's living in a house with strangers with different personalities), friend (who MUST keep in touch with the ones she have in the Philippines and here in Dubai), and an individual (who does everything for herself). But nonetheless, I'm still thankful that I have a job and I'm earning on my own! Haha.

So there. I'm really busy with my life right now and I know I must thank God for all of these. :)


This is my bed in our accommodation. I know it's a bit messy.. haha


Atlantis
(Am I getting fatter now? :( Because almost all of my friends who went here really gained weight so I'm a bit conscious with every kilo and inch I'm gaining. I hope I'll stay the same or at least lose weight some more! haha)

'Till next entry my dear blog. I promise to update you soon.

PS: One of my friends from college is also here in Dubai. He just arrived a week ago (I think). And I'm really excited to see him on friday! It's nice that I have someone now whom I can talk to about anything and everything, especially the problems I'm encountering here.. hahaha. But I won't tell you this part of my life now.

Goodnight world! Especially to my friends, blogmates, and lurkers. :)

Friday, April 30, 2010

Para sa mga minamahal kong bumibisita ng aking munting tahanan sa blogosperyo

Salamat... :) Natutuwa naman ako at may mga lurkers pala ang munti kong blog na ito. In fairness, may mga nagsesend na sa akin ng emails.. hahaha. Take note of the word "MGA". Promise, tumataba ang puso ko sa inyo. Maraming salamat naman at naa-appreciate niyo ang aking mga sinusulat. Balak ko tuloy i-delete yung mga "emo" posts ko.. hahaha. E kasi naman e. Nakakahiya. Akala ko walang nagbabasa nito at joke-time lang yung numbers ng visitors sa baba ng blog ko (ui, tumingin sa baba.. hehe). Kaya maski heto, pagod at inaantok na ako e i-a-update ko naman itong blog ko. :)

Isa sa mga natanggap kong emails ay nagrequest na i-post ko raw ang experience ko during my DOH exam last April 15. Kaya ikukwento ko na lang kahit ligwak ang beauty ko.. hahaha.

Ganito yun...


3pm ang exam ko sa Rashid Hospital-Auditorium/Library. Sa mga mag-e-exams at walang service kagaya ko, papasukin niyo yung taxi sa may bandang loob ng Rashid hospital. Huwag kayo magpahatid dun lang sa may labas dahil medyo malayo pa yung building. Take note: Separate ang building ng Auditorium/Library ng Rashid Hospital kesa dun sa mismong ospital. Brown building yun. Sa may bandang likod. Kasi kung lalakarin niyo lang e goodluck sa init.

O di nakita ko na rin yung building after mga 30 minutes na paghanap nun (kasi nga hindi ko pinapasok yung taxi sa may loob). E nako, wala pang tao. 2 Indians pa lang ang naka-upo dun sa may parang canteen. Nginitian ko since friendly naman ako. Ngumiti rin yung Indian girl at nilapitan ako at tinanong kung mag-e-exam nga rin ako.

Indian girl: You've worked in which department?
Ako: ER. You?
Indian girl: Pediatrics. How many years?
Ako: Only 1 year. You? (haha.. puros "you" e noh)
Indian girl: Me too. One year. 6 months in Pediatrics and 4 months in general.
Ako: (Umandar ang pagiging pakialamera. Nakita ko yung lalakeng Indian na kasama niya. Mukhang matanda kesa sa kanya) Is that your father?
Indian girl: (Laughs) No. He's my husband.
Ako: (Laughs) Oh, sorry! (covers face)
Indian girl: It's ok. (sabay balik sa table. kinuwento siguro sa asawa at yung asawa e lumabas ng building.. hahaha)

Matagal-tagal ako naghintay. Kasi 2pm ako dumating e. 8 Indians ang andun for examinations tapos 3 pinoy kami. Dumating na yung mga mag-iinterview. Lumabas yung isa. Matandang babae na naka-abaya na mukhang masungit. Tinawag kaming lahat at sinabi kung pang-ilan kami sa mga tatawagin nila. Pangatlo ako.

Maliit lang yung room na pinagka-conductan ng interview. Parang yung table sa mga meetings sa office yung table dun tapos kaharap mo yung 3 panelists. 3 babae yung panelists namin at that time. Yung matandang babae na naka-abaya na mukhang masungit na tumawag sa amin kanina, isang babaeng mukhang African, at saka isang British female na naka-abaya. Kaya alam kong British kasi sa accent (hindi ko maintindihan kasi nung una.. haha).

Bago ako tawagin, hindi ko na maintindihan yung nararamdaman ko noon. Basta, may bad feeling ako e. Pagbaba ko kasi ng taxi, napigtas yung personalized keychain na remembrance sa akin ng BFF ko sa pinas. Feeling ko masamang sign yun.. hahaha. Para akong naiihi na nauuhaw na nilalamig. Buti hindi ako hinimatay.. hehe.

Paglabas ng naunang examinee kesa sa iyo, hindi ka muna dapat papasok. Titingin ka dun sa glass door para kapag sinenyasan ka nung mga panelists na pwede ka nang pumasok, saka ka pa lang papasok. Kasi sabi nila baka pumasok na lang daw dun basta-basta e hindi pa nila tapos pag-usapan yung naunang examinee.

E di ako na. Sinenyasan na nila ako na pwede na kong pumasok...

Ako: Good afternoon madame.
Panelist 2 (P2): Good afternoon. Have a sit. Tell us something about your experience.
Ako: I graduated Bachelor of Science in Nursing last 2007. I have worked in Bahrain for a year. I've worked in Dr.******** Diabetic clinic and ****** hospital. It is a 50-bedded private hospital. I was assigned in ER, OPD, and In-patient ward.
P1(yung mukhang masungit): Why did you leave Bahrain?
Ako: Because I have to go back to Philippines to fix something important.
P1: Why don't you just go back in Bahrain? Why here in Dubai? (Parang ang sakit na ng ulo niya. Nakahawak sa ulo niya habang nakapatong yung siko sa table)
Ako: (Medyo nairita kasi kulang na lang sabihin sa akin huwag ako magtrabaho rito) Because I'm already here in Dubai, madame. My aunt sponsored me for a visit visa and she said to try to take the exam.
P1: Where were you assigned again? (Hindi pa nakikinig sa akin kanina!)
Ako: In ER madame.
P1: Only there?
Ako: In in-patient ward madame.
P1: In-patient? What's that?
Ako: It's also a medical ward madame.
P1: It's a medical ward. You have to tell us that because we don't know what in-patient means. We don't use it here.
P1: Ok. Tell me something about congestive heart failure.
Ako: It occurs when the heart cannot pump adequate blood to supply the oxygen demand in the body.
P1: Due to?
Ako: (Nawindang kasi yan lang yung naaalala ko about CHF. MI na yung naaalala ko) Because there is blockage or ischemia...
P1: NO.
Ako: The heart cannot pump adequate blood supply because.... the left ventricle of the heart is weakened..
P1: NO. Your first part of your definition is correct but the second one is not. How do you treat patients with CHF?
Ako: *Panic mode* (MI na talaga naiisip ko rito!) Nitroglycerine?
P1: NO.
Ako: Beta-blockers, calcium-channel blockers...
P1: NO. NO. (Tumayo para ayusin yung aircon. Akala ko hahambalusin na niya ko sa mga pinagsasasabi ko).
P2: What happens when there is congestion?
Ako: The heart cannot pump adequate blood supply to the lungs therefore the lungs cannot supply oxygenated blood back to the system.
P1: Do you even know what is Angina?
Ako: It is episodes/paroxysms of pain which occurs in the anterior chest which cannot be relived by rest or medicines.
P1: Cannot be relieved?
Ako: Ay, no, no madame. It can be relieved by rest or medicines. MI is the one which cannot be relieved by both.

P3: When you're in the hospital, what things should you check before giving medications to the patient?
Ako: The doctor's order, name of the patient...
P3: How will you know if that's the right patient?
Ako: You can ask the patient his/her name and verify if that's the name written on the chart.
P3: What if the patient is unconscious?
Ako: You can also check the patient's name tag on the wrist. Or you can ask the relatives for verification.
P3: What else should you check before giving medications?
Ako: Right route, right dose, right time, right drug, right patient.
P1: How many did you give us?
Ako: 5 madame.
P1: What are those again? (Hindi siya talaga nakikinig sa akin!)
Ako: (Inulit ulit lahat)

P2: When the patient has IV therapy, usually there are some complications. Could you give us some?
Ako: Phlebitis, fluid overload...
P2: How will you know if there is fluid overload?
Ako: Hmmm... The patient will have dyspnes, crackles... (wala na maisip.. haha)
P3: What will happen to the hands, feet?
Ako: Ah yeah. Edema!
P2: What other complications can you give?
Ako: That's all I can remember madame. (Nalimutan ko yung infection)
P2: Ok Camille, your interview is over. The results will be available on Monday. You can check it online or give us a call. (Imagine, Thursday ako nag-exam. Friday at Saturday walang government offices dito. Sunday wala pa result. Monday pa talaga nagkaroon. Imagine how many days ako waiting in vain!)


Ayun. At sad to say, hindi nga ako nakapasa. :( Pero siguro naman sa susunod, mas hindi na ako kakabahan as compared nung una. At saka alam ko na kung saan ako magfo-focus. Hindi ko na kakabisaduhin yung ibang hindi naman talaga kailangan like GCS kasi hindi naman ako neuro-nurse. Neurotic lang.. haha

TIP:

  • Be relaxed.

  • Huwag masyado magreview. Huwag OA gaya ko. Focus on major diseases, especially in the department you've worked before.

  • It's okay to say, "I'm sorry madame I don't know the answer." Pero magdasal ka na kung sinabi mo yan sa major question na tinanong sa iyo kasi dapat yun ang masasagot mo. Kagaya nung sa akin kasi CHF yung major dun e. Kaya sobrang feel ko na bagsak ako kahit hindi naman ako nabokya sa buong interview :(
Ayun lang.

Goodluck to those who will take the DOH exam!




PS: Ang dami kong kwento. Like nakalipat na ako sa accommodation namin kaya super independent na ako. Busy ako sa work na rin. At hindi na ako sad at emo about love kasi... hahaha.. secret :)

Abangan ang susunod na kabanata!


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Thanks a lot everyone. Godbless! More updates to come, promise. <3
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Thursday, April 22, 2010

Wow!

Natuwa naman ako at may nagsend sa email ko asking me about sa isa kong blog entry.. hehe
 
Sender:
 
hi, I am maybel, nurse din. Nabasa ko kasi ung blog mo about sa paghahanap mo ng work jan sa middle east. Help naman po, gusto ko rin kasi magtrabaho jan sa middle east ang hirap makanap ng work dito sa pinas as a nurse. 3 months lang ang experience ko kaya nag hirap din humanap ng agency, hingi sana ako ng advice, mas maganda ba na mag tourist visa muna ako jan sa dubai den hanap ako ng work pag anjan na... help naman.. desperate na ko maghanap ng work... hay,,, thanks and God bless you
 
 
Dear Maybel (yehes ate charo naman ang dating ko nito.. hehe),
 
Hindi ko maipapayo sa iyo na mag-Dubai ka. Sa totoo lang gurl, recession din dito. I was here last December pa. Tourist visa ako noon na good for 2 months. Ang hirap makahanap ng work as a nurse kasi mas pinipili nila dito na may license ka na rito. In order for you to work here as a nurse, you have to pass an oral exam. Sa Dept. of Health ng Dubai. Magtatanong sila sa iyo ng anything about nursing na tumatagal ng 15 mins. And well, kaka-exam ko lang a week ago at sad to say, ligwak ang beauty ng lola mo.. hahaha. Buti na lang mabait yung employer ko kaya vivisahan pa rin nila ako at after 2 months, magte-take ulit ako ng exams na sumalangit nawa ay pumasa ako. Magfocused ka magreview sa area na naassignan ka. Kasi ako sa ER ako nakapagwork. E kaso nagmamagaling ako kaya lahat kinabisado ko at hindi nagfocused masyado dun kaya sumemplang.. hahaha.
 
Pero 3 months kamo ang experience mo? Kasi gurl, before they allow you to take the exam here, you need to pass their assessment. Eto mga kailangan mo ha:
  • UAE authenticated credentials (HS diploma, TOR, certificate of graduation; College diploma at TOR; PRC license). Yung sa HS credentials, dadalhin mo yun sa Deped kung saan covered yung school mo. Tapos bibigyan ka ng claim stub ng Deped at kukunin mo na yun sa DFA na naka-red ribbon na. Tapos yung sa college credentials mo naman, punta ka sa university na pinaggraduate-an mo at ask mo paano ipa-authenticate yung mga yun. Kasi yung sa akin, sila na nagprocess hanggang sa CHED. Tapos sa school ko na lang kinlaim lahat yun na nakared-ribbon na rin. Nagbayad lang ako. Yung PRC license mo, ipipila mo yun sa DFA. For personal purpose yata kasi yun. Unsure ako sa parteng yan kasi tita ko nag-ayos nun e.. haha. Anyways, kapag nakared-ribbon na ung lahat ng credentials mo, punta ka sa DHL at sabihin mo ipapa-UAE authenticate mo yung mga yun. Php 1,700 per document. so bale, 1,700 x 3 (HS, College, PRC license).
  • Working experience from previous employer. Baka dito ka magkaproblem kasi sabi mo nga 3 months pa lang ang experience mo. Hinahanap kasi nila at least nakabuo ka ng 450 hours sa pagtatrabaho mo. Ikaw na magcompute ineng kung nakaabot naman yung duty hours mo.
  • Passport copy
  • Offer letter from employer (eto lang naman ay kung swertihin kang makahanap ng employer na maayos. Kapag may employer ka, mas mababa ang babayaran mo sa exam. Kapag wala, tumataginting na Php 25k!)
  • Passport pictures
Just for you to have an idea kung ano ba ang pinagsasabi kong red-ribbon (hindi ito cake! haha), eto ang images. Plus yung UAE embassy seal na sinasabi ko rin:


(Paper siya sa harapan ng bawat credentials mo na nagpapatunay na lahat ng mga yun ay totoo)






Ayun lang gurl. Yan lang naman kasi ang naexperience ko dito kaya yan ang maipapayo ko. Pero may iba rin namang sinwerte at nakahanap agad. Ikaw na lang ang bahala magdesisyon.

Pero ganun pa man, salamat sa pagbasa ng aking blog at pagsend ng inquiry. :)


Lovelots,

Camille *cutiemaartie.blogspot.com*

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

What I've been reviewing...

Sterilization is the eradication of all forms of microbial life including endospores which are the most resistant.
Disinfection is the reduction of vegetative pathogens which are non-endospore forming.

CATEGORIES OF STERILIZATION:
1. Critical - instruments which comes in contact with the bones
2. Semi-critical - instruments which comes in contant with soft tissues
3. Non-critical - instruments which comes in contact with intact skin
4. Single-use/Disposable - should be discarded every after patient

METHODS OF STERILIZATION:
1. Autoclave - superheated steam under pressure with time
                    - 240 degrees F, 15-20 pounds per square inch (pressure)
                    - uses distilled water
2. Chemclave - same as autoclave but uses chemical vapor instead of distilled water
                      - 270 degrees F, 15-20 pounds per square inch (pressure)
3. Dry-heat sterilization - used if the instruments will rust in the autoclave
                                    - instruments should be properly washed and dried first before putting into the machine



COPD - chronic obstructive pulmonary disease
           - irreversible respiratory disease which involves abnormal inflammatory response of the airways to noxious particles
           - chronic bronchitis and emphysema
   *Chronic bronchitis - presence of cough and production of phlegm for at least 3 months of each 2 consecutive years
   * Emphysema - destruction of walls due to abnormal overdistention of alveoli

Bronchial asthma - onset is during childhood and is reversible as one gets older or through treatment
         - involves hypermucosal edema

Pneumonia - usually caused by streptococcus pneumoniae; inflammation of the lung parenchyma

        - sudden, onset shaking/chills
        - rapidly rising fever
        - pleuritic chest pain
        - dyspnea, orthopnea

Tuberculosis - caused by mycobacterium tuberculi and mostly affects the lung parenchyma

       - night sweats
       - on/off fever
       - pleauritic chest pain
       - cough
       - dyspnea
       - hemoptysis

mantoux test/purified protein derivative - confirmatory test; 10 mm induration

Nursing intervention (usually for all resp diseases):
- fowler's position - lung expansion
- promote oxygenation - 2-4 L/min (if more than 50% of the concentration and given for an extended period like more than 48 hours, O2 toxicity might occur)
- deep breathing exercises
- chest physiotherapy
- increased fluid intake


Pulmonary Hypertension - systolic pulmonary artery pressure exceeds 30 mmhg/mean pulmonary artery pressure exceeds 25 mmhg
- mimic symptoms of R sided heart failure

Pulmonary embolism - there is an obstruction due to ischemia somewhere in the branches of the pulmonary artery

Angina pectoris - episodes/paroxysms of pain occurs in the anterior chest which lasts for 3-5 mins
           - may be due to ischemia
       
Myocardial infarction - the areas of the myocardial cells have been permanently damaged, so the myocardium receives reduced oxygenated blood

    - crushing, tight chest pain which radiates on the neck, jaw, arms lasting for longer period which cannot be relieved by rest/meds
    - diaphoresis
    - restlessness
    - anxiety
    - dyspnea

Nursing intervention:
- high fowler's position
- oxygenation
- feet should not be dangling, should either be dependent on bed or on floor
- avoid constricting clothing

Meds:
Nitroglycerine - decreases oxygen demand of the heart, decreases ischemia and pain
             - can be given up to 3 times only
             - burning sensation under tongue - drug potency

Beta blockers/calcium channel blockers - decreaser heart rate/contractility

Morphine - analgesic


Cardiac arrest - when the heart ceases to function producing inefficient pulse and blood flow
           - conciousness, BP, pulse will be lost
           - respiratory gasping may occur
           - dilatation of the eyes may occur within 45 seconds

Basic life support is an emergency procedure that consists of recognizing signs of cardiac or respiratory arrest or both, and giving proper CPR to maintain breathing and circulation of the patient until patient recovers or advanced life support arrives

Advanced cardiac life support is also like basic life support but it uses special equipments to prolong life

Do not start CPR when:
- patient has a tag of DNR (Do not resuscitate)
- no biological effect, signs of death are evident (rigor mortis, decapitation, etc.)
- in infants: less than 28 weeks of gestation, anencephaly, less than 20 gms

Stop CPR when:

- signs of recovery has been executed by the victim
- turning over to another rescuer.medical personnel
- operator/rescuer is exhausted
- physician assumes responsibility (do CPR, declares death)

Steps:
1. Survey the scene.
2. Assess the patient. Hey, hey, hey are you ok? Activate EMS.
3. Check for obstruction.
4. If no obstruction seen, check for breathing: (1001-1005)
5:  Not breathing, give 2 rescue breaths and observe for rising of the chest.
6. Check for pulse (1001-1010), carotid artery (if infant: brachial artery)
7. If no pulse, start CPR. 30 compressions: 2 rescue breaths; 5 cycles
8. Check again for pulse and breathing (1001-1010)
9. If breathing and pulse is restored, put in side lying position until EMS arrives.


Diabetes Mellitus - occurs when the person has high blood sugar level either due to insufficient production of insulin, or the body resists insulin.

DM type I
- juvenile type: onset is 30 y/o or younger
- insulin dependent DM: Beta cells of the islets of langerhans in the pancreas do not produce insulin
- treated by insulin:
          *rapid acting - onset is from 30 mins - 1 hour
                 - actrapid, humulin R
          *intermediate acting - onset is from 2 hr - 3hours
                 - humulin N, semilente
          *long-acting - onset is from 4-5 hours
                 - ultralente, monotard

DM type 2
- maturity onset is 40 y/o and above
- non-insulin dependent DM: beta cells of the islets of langerhans in the pancreas produces insulin but the body resists it.
- treated by OHA (oral hypoglycemic agents)
            *sulfonylareas: metformin, glucophage

Normal blood sugar level - 80-120 mg/dl

Hypoglycemia - low blood sugar level
causes: ommission of meals, overdose of insulin, strenuous activity
signs: tremors, cold clammy skin, hunger pangs, restlessness
tx: fruit juice (orange), candy, dextrose 50%

Hyperglycemia - high blood sugar level
causes: stress, surgery, overdose of insulin, overeating
signs: polyphagia (excessive starvation), polyuria (excessive urination), polydipsia (excessive thirst), kussmaul's breathing, fruity odor breath
tx: insulin, NSS + insulin

*Somogyi phenomenon - occurs when the patient took long-acting insulin at night and didn't eat any snack before going to bed. The blood sugar level will be lowered down while he/she is asleep. The body responds to this by releasing hormones to release glucose. The next morning the patient will have a high blood sugar level

*Dawn's phenomenon - usually at night hormones are released to trigger to liver to release glucose. If there is not enough insulin, the patient will suffer from hyperglycemia the next day

Shock - when there in inadequate blood and oxygen being delivered in the body

kinds:
1. hypovolemic shock - excessive blood/fluid has been lost
2. anaphylactic - due to allergy
3. septic shock - massive vascular collapse secondary to gm - infection
4. cardiogenic chock - when the heart functions inefficiently

nursing intervention: trendelenburg position to promote venous return and treat underlying cause


Post-op complications:
1. Hemorrhage - must be referred immediately for possible blood transfusion or return to OR for wound exploration
2. Post-op fever - might be due to infection
3. Infection - must be treated immediately with antibiotics
4. Atelectasis - may be due to airway obstruction because of broncial secretions. pre and post op physiotherapy should be done
5. deep vein thrombosis - poor blood supply. thrombolytics
6. delayed wound healing - wound dehiscense - may be due to extensive suture tension, malnutrition, poor blood supply. should put sterile gauze on wound and return to the doctor immediately

IV therapy:
- for patients with fluid and electrolyte imbalance
- cannot take food and fluids by mouth
- for emergency medications
- for pre and post op surgery and is NPO
- for critically ill patients

1. Verify order for IV therapy
2. explain procedure to the patient
3. prepare equipments: IV solution already with IV tubings, micropore, cotton, band-aid, IV catheter (g.18-19: BT and for surgery; g.20-22: adult; g.22-24:child)
4. find the best vein possible. straight and visible
5. ask the patient to make fist. taut the skin from where the vein is located
6. insert the IV catheter
7. observe for quick blood return
8. withdraw the stylet needle and advance the IV catheter
9. secure in place
10. connect the IV line and start the drip
11. document

Blood transfusion - transferring blood and blood-based products from one circulatory system to another.

1. Verify order for BT
2. Get patient's consent form
3. check for blood's compatibility
    - cross matching has been done
    - patient's name and name on the blood bag is the same
    - expiration date
4. check patient's VS to obtain baseline VS
5. prepare equipments: NSS, blood unit, y-tubing administration set with filter, g.18-19 IV catheter
6. gently invert the blood bag to mix the plasma with the RBC
7. attach the blood bag to the y-port and slowly start the drip (2-5 ml for 15 mins)
8. stay with the patient to determine any hemolytic reactions
9. check the patient's VS: every 5 min for 15 min, every 15 min for 30 mins, every 30 mins for 1 hour, then every hour
10. then increase the rate. should be consumed within 4 hours otherwise blood will deteriorate
11. after blood has been transfused, start the NSS
12. dispose bag properly
13. document


Chicken pox - varicella virus
 - can be transmitted through resp. route
 - after 2 weeks, vesicles will appear on the skin
 - crusts and scabs will be formed during the latter stage
 - *Reye's syndrome - common complication
            - has a higher incidence if aspirin is taken to reduce fever
            - brain dysfunction occurs

Shingles - recurrence of chicken pox
 - herpes zoster
 - usually on the lower back
 - may cause paralysis
 - acyclovir is the medication of treatment

Herpes simplex - human herpes simplex virus 1 and 2
  HSV 1:
  - usually occurs in the oral mucosa
  - cold/fever blisters
  - latent on trigeminal nerve ganglia (bet. face and neck)

  HSV 2:
  - through sexual contact
  - latent on sacral base ganglia

- both can be triggered by overexposure to UV rays, stress, and hormonal imbalance

Measles
- rubeola
- macular rash
- koplik spots (sign) - tiny red patches with white central specks on the buccal cavity

German measles
- rubella
- milder than measles


droplet - less than 1 m
airborne - more than 1 m


Hepatitis - any inflammtory disease on the liver

Hepa A - fecal oral route. contaminated food

Hepa B, D, E - sexual contact, infected blood transfusions

Hepa C - same as all


HIV - human immunodeficiency virus
AIDS - acquired immunodeficieny syndrome, latent stage

- can be transferred by sexual contact, blood transfusion, tranpslancental, breast milk, infected needles


Glasgow coma scale - objective measure used to describe patient's level of consciousness through eye opening, verbal and motor response. perfect score is 15

Eye opening:
4 - spontaneous eye opening
3 - by request
2 - to painful stimuli
1 - no response

Verbal response
5 - oriented to people, time, place
4 - engages in conversation but confused in content (disoriented)
3 - words are spoken but conversation not sustained (inappropriate)
2 - groans, evoked on pain
1 - no response

Motor response
6 - obeys command
5 - localizes painful stimuli
4 - flexion withdrawal, cannot localize pain
3 - decorticate (abnormal flexion)
2 - decerebrate (abnormal extension)'
1 - no response


walang tinginan yan.. haha sana isalba ako neto bukas! goodluck myself! I go girl!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

How do you stop when you still wanted to go?

I am hurting. Still.

Eventhough I crack jokes, put up wacky faces, smile and laugh a lot, when I go home, I still cry. When I'm alone, I still cry.

And sometimes I think I'm overreacting but I can't help it. I don't want to cry but sometimes I just can't control my emotions.

I am human. I have feelings too.

I'm crying because I was hurt.

And I guess it's just normal.



Do I have to tell you that I'm still hurting because of you? Because I really wanted to.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Tuloy na tuloy na!


Tuloy na ako ulit sa April 8 papuntang Dubey.. hehe. Wala na kong ibang inaalala at hinihiling sa ngayon kundi sana makapasa ako sa exam ko sa 15.

Sana, sana talaga Lord. Nag-aral naman ako sa abot nang makakaya ko. Kaya lang Lord hindi ko na talaga kaya. Sakit na ng ulo ko po. Pero promise magrereview ulit ako pagdating ko dun. Sana patuloy Niyo po akong bigyan ng lakas ng loob, tiwala sa sarili, at linaw ng pag-iisip. Pasensiya na po Lord kung magulo talaga ako magdesisyon.. hahaha. Pero promise kapag nasettled naman na ako nang maayos sa Dubai, aayusin ko na rin po buhay ko. Hindi na ako magrereklamo sa trabaho (masyado), mag-iipon na ko ng pera, hindi na ko magshashopping (masyado), at maghahappy-happy with friends (masyado). Thank you Lord. Labyu!!! Amen :)


Excited na ako. 2nd chance ko na ito to have a work na in line sa profession ko, 2nd chance to work abroad, at 2nd chance to go to Dubai. Kaya dapat talaga pagbutihin ko na. Haaayyyy pressure ito!!!


5 days to goooooooooo!!!!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Si Highschool crush :)

Ayoko nang maging emo kaya magba-blog na muna ako ng masaya ngayon :)

Nung 3rd yr. highschool kami, saka ko naging classmate si highschool crush (HC). Una ko siyang naging crush nung tinuruan niya ako sa Math noon. Hindi naman kami close pa noon tapos biglang lumapit na lang siya sa akin para turuan ako sa Math workbook namin. Ayun, simula noon, napansin ko na siya.

E ang kaso ang dami pa lang nagkakacrush din sa kanya! Hahaha. Sa itsura niyang yun na mukhang pusa?! haha. E siguro kasi, mysterious ang dating kasi tahimik.

Tapos naging seatmates kami nung 3rd quarter. Yung katabi ko sa kabila, nakakaasar yun. Magulo. Lagi akong inaasar tapos sinusulatan ako ng ballpen sa kamay. E sa diin ng pagsulat niya, nasusugatan na ako. Nakita yun ni HC. Bigla niyang hinawakan yung kamay kong may sugat, at biglang sabi: "Camille, magpapasulat ka na lang kasi sa kanya para hindi ka nasusugat." O di ba, ang sweet?! Hahaha. leche siya.

Tapos since seatmates nga kami, naging close na rin kami nun. Lagi kaming review partners. Tinatakpan ko nga mukha ko ng libro kapag siya na yung nirereview ko e.. hahaha. E kinikilig kasi ako noon tapos hindi ko mapigilan tawa ko (actually hanggang ngayon na sinusulat ko e natatawa ako). Tapos siya rin lagi kong kakopyahan sa lahat ng subjects.

Ang hindi ko makakalimutan, nung nagkasakit ako ng ilang araw tapos umabsent ako. Tapos nung pumasok na ako, may surprise quiz sa Math at sa Chemistry. E malamang hindi ko alam isasagot dun kasi kapapasok ko lang! Bumulong siya agad sa akin, "Camille, kopya ka na lang sa akin." E di siyempre perfect ako maski wala akong alam sa lesson na yun! Hahaha.

Nung 4th year na kami, narealized ko na parang gumagrabe na yung pagkagusto ko sa kanya na kailangan ko nang umiwas. May pagkaganun kasi akong ugali. Natatakot akong mahalata niya. Pero nahalata rin naman niya na umiiwas ako. Sabi pa niya sa akin nung nagkasabay kami minsan papuntang classroom, "Umiiwas ka na a. Suplada ka na." Na dineny ko namang bonggang-bongga na, "Ako umiiwas? Hindi a. Ba't naman ako iiwas?" (Pansin ko lang hanggang ngayon, ganito dialogue ko kapag nabubuking ako.. hahaha).

Pero hindi na talaga rin masyado kami nag-usap nun. Hanggang sa malapit nang maggraduation. Tumatawag siya sa amin noon lagi para magpadictate ng mga sagot sa review tests namin. Ewan ko nga kung bakit all of a sudden biglang ako yung naisipan niyang tawagan. At parang engot lang na hindi ba siya nakapakinig sa teachers namin nung umagang yun para tawagan pa ako at ulitin ko lang din mga sinabi ng teachers namin?! 

Tapos nung malapit nang mag-graduation ball noon, nagkasabay kami ulit pauwi. Kasama niya yung bestfriend niya, tapos kasama ko naman bestfriend ko. Ganito naging usapan namin:

Bestfriend niya: Camille hindi kayo pupunta sa gradball?
HC: Hindi naman pupunta yang mga yan e.
Ako: Oo hindi kami pupunta kasi may sarili kaming party e (sabay tawa ng pilit).
HC: Alam mo Camille, maraming madidisappoint na mag-aalok sa iyo kung hindi ka pupunta.

At sabi naman ng mahadera kong bestfriend, kasali raw si HC dun. Parang pinariringgan niya ako at that time "daw". Pero nabalitaan ko after nung grad ball, nakasayaw niya yung sinasabing crush daw niya sa classroom namin e and they looked good together. Habang tinutukso siya at that time, niloloko rin ako ng bestfriend ko noon. Sabi ba naman sa akin, "Hala Camille, iyak na. Iyak na!" Hahaha. Bwiset siya.


Tapos siyempre wala nang communication after ng highschool. Nung nagtatrabaho na lang ulit ako sa Bahrain. Minsan-minsan nakakapag-usap kami sa YM. Pinost ko pa nga yata yung ilan sa Multiply blog ko e.

At saka pala kanina nagkausap din kami. Medyo weird pero in a good way naman ang feeling ko sa kanya. Kasi super nagbago na siya. Hindi na siya yung dati na parang tuod na walang emosyon, at sobrang tahimik na tao. Ngayon, mas sociable na siya, marunong na mag-approach at nagkukwento na.

Nagtaka siya sa shout-out ko kanina kasi it's about my crush who's an Indian doctor na ikakasal na today. I call him Mcdreamy. Nagtaka tuloy si HC kung sino raw si Mcdreamy at siyempre naikwento ko. Hanggang sa nauwi ang kwentuhan sa kasal.

Ako: Ikaw kelan ka magpapakasal?
HC: Kapag umibig na.
Ako: Weh hindi ka pa umiibig?
HC: Bata pa ako para isipin ang mga ganung bagay...

At nauwi ang kwentuhan sa mga pinaggagagawa namin nung highschool kami. Nung seatmates pa kami, review partners, kopyahan buddies, at mga kung anu-ano pa.

Nakakamiss.

Nakakakilig pa rin.

Nothing beats highschool.

Iba pa rin si Highschool crush. :)



 

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

What's with pride?

Minsan may mga bagay kang gustong tanungin at linawin pero kaya mo kayang itanong o hindi na lang kasi may pride ka?

Paano kung matatahimik ka lang kapag nalaman mo yung kasagutan kahit masakit (or hindi masakit kasi hindi mo pa talaga alam), go ka ba or huwag na lang kasi may pride ka?

Ang labo pare!

Monday, March 15, 2010

How to avoid being clingy

Sometimes, when I like someone, I tend to be clingy with him. I always want to talk to him, see him, and share stories with him. Of course, I like the person that's why I'm interested in knowing him. But I guess, this habit of mine is really unhealthy. My friends even said that I'm PARANOID (Oh yeah, I've heard it for more than 10 times now!). But I can't help it! I always think of negative things whenever he would not call me throughout the day. :(

So to help myself from being a clingy-freak, I googled this topic and I would like to share these steps to those girls (or even guys) who want to change their attitude for a loving and healthier relationship.

HOW TO AVOID BEING CLINGY:


  1. Trust the other person totally. They are not like your ex, and will not do the same thing to you. Not every man or every woman is out to break your heart or steal your money. Relax and do not blow a good relationship because you feel selfish.

  2. Realize that the one you love is in love with who you are. That will not change unless you continue to be selfish and that will only serve to drive that person away. Be yourself, the person they fell in love with and not the person who clings and is selfish.

  3. Keep yourself busy. When you feel like being clingy usually, it is because you are lonely and keeping busy will eliminate that need. Find a hobby, read a book, visit a friend, or clean your house from top to bottom do anything you can do to avoid being selfish. (Or in my case, REVIEW!)

  4. Realize that the one you love has a life which you are a part of. You are not that person's whole life and you should not consume them, for that only brings heartbreak to both of you. Do not try to consume their every waking moment of their life; they have jobs and a life outside of you.
  5. Allow the person to be themselves. You fell in love with that person because of whom they were, and if you cling to them for life support then you are changing them from whom you love. You should never want to change someone you love.
  6. Realize that if you try to control the actions of the one you profess to love, you will lose that person. Let that person be him or herself. For if you try to control they will high tail it out of the relationship, as no one likes to be controlled.

In my case, well I guess I'm still having problems regarding trust issues. Maybe putting up high walls for my defense, is really not a good idea. Eventhough I wanted to give my whole trust to someone, I still have this fear that he might broke it and I will be in pain again. :(

But I'm trying. I'm trying to break the walls and to trust someone again.

I just hope he is true enough and will wait for me when the time comes that I'm ready to be with him. :)





*Oo nga pala. Si Juan ay si Juan at si Pedro ay si Pedro. Hindi sila magkaparehas at magkaibang tao sila.*

Friday, March 12, 2010

Hanep

Ang bilis talaga ng DHL. Natanggap ko na kahapon yung mga papers na kailangan ko. Nagsabi na rin ako dun sa nag-aayos ng visa ko sa Dubai na ok na at pwede na nilang simulang ayusin yung papers ko dun. Nagreply naman siya agad. Sabi niya, pwede na raw ako magpabooked ng end of March. Ang bilis din talaga ng panahon ano?

Masaya ba ako?

Sa totoo lang, eto yung hindi ko maintindihan sa sarili ko. Kapag nasa Pinas ako, gusto kung umalis at makapagtrabaho na ulit sa ibang bansa. Kapag nasa ibang bansa na ako, gusto ko na ulit umuwi at makasama ang mga mahal ko sa buhay. Kahapon nung nareceive ko yung papers ko, medyo nalungkot ako. Inaasahan ko kasi next week ko pa marereceive yun. Sabi kasi ng DHL sa akin last week, 7 working days daw excluding weekends. So ang bilang ko talaga, sa Tuesday next week ko pa marereceive. E pero ganun e. Nareceive ko na kahapon. Dapat nga di ba nagpapasalamat ako at naayos nang maaga! Haha. Ang gulo ko lang talaga. Sabi ko nga e. Bipolar ako.

Kaya rin siguro hindi ako masyadong masaya na natapos ko nang ayusin yung papers ko ay dahil ang dami ko pang pending na lakad. Sa totoo lang, modesty aside, ang hirap maging Ms. Congeniality. Masaya ako na ang dami kong kaibigan, ang dami kong grupong sinalihan, at ang daming nagmamahal sa akin. Super natouched ako na ang daming nagtext, natuwa, at gustong makipagkita muna sa akin bago ako bumalik ng Dubai. Pero sad to say, kaunti pa lang ang nakasama kong friends. Sana naman maintindihan ako ng iba kong kaibigan na nahihirapan din naman akong i-schedule ang sarili ko sa lahat ng lakad ko. Gusto ko silang lahat makita at maibigay yung mga pasalubong ko. Ang kaso lang, nagrereview din naman ako, at sa totoo lang, tinitipid ko rin yung allowance na binigay sa akin nila mama dahil nga mamamasahe pa ako pabalik sa Dubai. Sana naman maintindihan nila na may mga bagay na ganito na kahit gusto mo naman talagang sumama, may priorities ka ring iba na mas dapat mauna.

Pero promise. Ta-try ko namang pangatawanan ang pagiging kaibigan ko sa inyo. I'll try my best to meet you guys before I leave. :)

At nakakatawa ang romantic horoscope ko kanina sa FB. Pakibasa lalo na yung last line...

(Pakiclick na lang po to enlarge image. Kasi kapag nilakihan ko, hindi kakasya sa border)

Haha.. parang saktong-sakto na ewan ko. Nakakalungkot na ewan ko rin tuloy nararamdaman ko naman dito :(

Anyway, bahala na. Lubusin ang mga natitirang araw.


PS: Naalis si Adam Lambert sa American Idol!!!!! Yung bet ko na mananalo from my previous entry. Ano ba yan. Mukhang lagi na lang mali instinct ko ngayon a. What's happening???!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Bipolar

The heat yesterday was just so insane! Eventhough my electric fan was on all throughout the day, it didn't do any help. I only turn my aircon on for 3 hours during night to save electricity since I'll be needing more money for my trip to Dubai soon.

I don't know if it was just because of the heat, or maybe hormonal imbalance (again), or maybe I was just not in  the good mood yesterday.

Maybe I'll be receiving my authenticated HS credentials next week, already sealed by UAE embassy. I just hope it will be finished as soon as possible.

I want to leave now. I want to go back to Dubai and leave all my problems here behind.

I know this is where I'm good at. Running away and never facing my own dilemmas in life.



Lord please give us some rain. Not like Ondoy but something to relieve us from this intense heat.


PS: I saw this in my friend's FB and somehow, I got affected! Haha. Shet! But I already stopped my "stalking" habit since friendster days. :)



Did this affect you too? Haha!


 

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Update :)

Nakuha ko na kahapon ang pinakamamahal kong red-ribboned HS TOR, diploma, at certificate of graduation. Ang tagal namin sa DFA, which is somewhere in Baclaran (yata?) na. Bagong building na super lamig. E ang suot ko medyo manipis na blouse kasi mainit sa biyahe. O di kamusta naman na ako nung nasa loob ako ng DFA? Hahaha. Wow!

Tapos pinadala ko na rin siya sa DHL para mapatatakan na nila sa UAE embassy, kasama yung PRC license ko. Ang mahal! Umabot ng halos Php4k yung lahat ng yun. UAE embassy seal lang yun a. Gawa ba sa ginto yun? Ayun. 7 working days daw, excluding weekends. Kaya this coming monday pa ang start. At least may nangyayari naman na.


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Nanonood pala ako ng American Idol Season 9. Hindi ko pa sila lahat masyado kilala kasi I just started watching this week. I have a few favorites na rin naman at isa rito ay si Alex Lambert. This guy is just so shy lalo na last week. Pero etong performance niyang ito, wow. Superb! Hehe. Siya ang bet kong mananalo this season. :) Pustahan?



At hindi ka ba naman matunaw sa tuwing ifo-focused siya ng camera?


Aside from Dingdong Dantes and Victor Basa, eto ang lalakeng nakakakilig panoorin para sa akin.. hehe

Thursday, March 4, 2010

You give me something

I was watching American Idol last night and one of the contestants sang this song.

You give me something by James Morrison




You give me something that makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing, but I'm willing to give it a try :)


I've found out something yesterday which made me a bit shocked. But as the hours passed last night, I realized that we all have our fair-share of first love, one true love, first heartache, and the likes. Only a few among us are very lucky to have their first love as their partners for a long time. Even soulmates don't end up with each other. And we all are not sure of what tomorrow might bring to us. We will never know who's really the one for us.

But I still believe in destiny. That no matter how long and how many obstacles you've faced in your lifetime, if two people are meant for each other, then God will make a way to keep them together.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Growing apart

Another thing that I also fear in having relationships is that it is not forever. Even married couples for a long time grow apart.

For example, my parents who are both living in Bahrain. In the same house under one roof as husband and wife. But not in the same bed and they are not talking to each other for quite some time now. When I was still in Dubai, one has to call me to relay one's message to the other. I hate it. Not only because I don't have enough balance to call them, but they both know that I'm also busy finding a job at that time. One time I even told my Dad that it's their problem and I have mine too so they should just fix it with themselves. I actually felt sorry after I said that. Maybe I was just feeling a bit pressured at that time.

Until now that I'm back here in the Philippines, they are still not talking to each other. But they still do their responsibilities as husband and wife. Like my Dad would pick up my Mom from work, and my Mom would still do the laundry for the both of them. But that's it. Every Friday (considered as a day off in Middle East) I talk to my Mom via webcam, but without my Dad. He's either in his friend's house or in church. I miss my Dad actually. I haven't seen him via webcam for a long time now.

Even when I was still there in Bahrain, they were already having some problems. My Dad said if it wasn't for me, maybe he would have left my Mom a long time ago. He's been a very good father to me. He makes impossible things happen for the sake of our family. I know, for the past 10 or 12 years of my life, he's been trying to patch things up between the two of them. Before I left Bahrain, he promised me that he will do everything to make their relationship work. But I don't know what will happen now that it's been months since the last time they talked to each other. Everytime I talk to one of them, one will say something bad about the other. It's very difficult to pretend that I'm fine with what's been happening to our family. I'm trying my best to smile and to keep our conversations light, but somehow, deep inside, I am hurting.

I have so many issues in life that I've been trying to fix right now. It's sad that the people who are very dear to me are adding up to my problems.

And I find it weird that for almost 24 years of their marriage, they are still having these misunderstandings. I just hope everything will be fine as soon as possible.



Plus the pressure of my upcoming exam on April (I know, a month early for this) makes me more stressed!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Reasons to be happy

Wala akong ibang nararamdaman ngayon kundi pure happiness (aside sa sumasakit na puson dahil first day ko.. hahaha binlog pa e noh).

1. Naaayos ko na unti-unti ang papers ko. Tapos na siya sa Dep ed. Kukunin ko na siya by next week sa DFA at naka-red ribbon na. Dadalhin ko na yun after sa DHL para patatakan nila sa UAE embassy. Hindi naman pala ganun katagal din e. So one problem, almost solved!

2. Yung magiging kasamahan ko sa work sa Dubai, lagi akong tinatanong kung ano ng balita sa akin para raw mapaayos na niya yung visa ko. Sobrang thankful ako na napunta ako sa kanila kasi talagang tinutulungan naman nila ako. Gratitude ko na sa kanila na ipasa ko yung exam ko sa April.

3. Yung isa sa mga naging kaclose kong doktor sa ospital na pinagtrabahuan ko sa Bahrain dati ay ginreet ako sa fb ko. Nangangamusta. Talagang super touched ako nung binati niya ko. Actually kapag naaalala ko nga sila sa ngayon, yung mga kasamahan ko dun sa ospital na yun, naiiyak ako. Ako lang ang bukod tanging pinay nurse dun at lahat sila halos Indians. Pero mababait sila sa akin talaga. Magkakaiba man sa language, culture, religion, at POV sa buhay, masasabi kong maswerte ako dahil napasama ako sa kanila. Hindi naman lahat ng kalahi nila ay masama ang ugali. Parang Pinoy din. Hindi lahat dapat pagkatiwalaan. Pare-parehas lang tayong lahat na gawa ni God. Minsan, nagi-guilty ako dahil sa mga pinagsasabi ko sa dati kong blog about sa kanila. Siguro dala lang yun ng frustration ko sa work ko dun. Pero ganunpaman, I'm very grateful to them for giving me a wonderful working experience, and of course, for the friendship and trust that they've given me until now. I'm glad I have Indian friends! :)

4. Nagkasama-sama na naman kami ng mga kabarkada ko nung HS. Nagpaintball kami at sleep over nung Monday! Hehe. Ang saya-saya lang! I love you so much my BFFs!!! :)

Hahaha.. kinikilig yata ako habang nilalagyan ni Kuya ng gear!

Green team vs. Black team (Siyempre nanalo kami! Hahaha. Over-all champion yata ako! :D)
David Garcia Jrs. ang dating namin dito a!

4. Medyo ibinababa ko na ang walls ko. :) E kasi, pinangaralan ako ng isang tao. Yung walls ko raw lampas-lampasan na sa ulo ko (di ba nga sabi ko rin sa last entry ko nahihirapan din naman talaga ako). Fine, nakamoved on daw ako sa isang taong minahal at pinahalagahan ko noon na nauwi sa wala, pero dun sa situation na sinasabi kong ayaw ko nang balikan, yung pagiging takot kong maging pathetic, hindi raw. Kaya raw ako takot magtry kasi iniisip ko na masasaktan ako kaya umiiwas na ako agad. Which is true naman talaga. Kumbaga raw, hindi ko pa sinasagot ung lalake, iniisip ko na yung stage na masasaktan na ako! Hahaha parang praning lang!

Oo, si "O" yung nagsabi ng mga yan. Matanda na kasi kaya maraming nalalaman sa buhay! hahahaha. Ang natutuwa naman ako sa kanya, hindi niya ako pinepressure. Alam niya naman kasi na marami pa akong inaayos as of now, lalo na yung exam ko sa April. Sinusuportahan naman niya ako. At saka for the first time, parang sa kanya ko nafeel na hindi ko kailangang magworry na baka bukas wala na siya. Well, sana nga ganun. Basta, masarap lang ulit kiligin! hahahaha. arte lang e noh.


Hay Lord. Salamat ng sobra. Parang sobrang okay nga na umuwi muna ako. Well, marami pa akong mga pending na lakad. Marami pa kong pasalubong na hindi pa nabibigay.. hehe. Sana naman maibigay ko rin yun bago ako mag-fly away ulit.

Ang tanging ikinakakaba ko as of now, e yung nalalapit kong oral exam!!!!!!!! Nyay!!!! Nagrereview-review na rin naman ako. Kaso siyempre, praning ako, maski feeling ko hindi naman tatanungin sa akin e pinagkakaabalahan ko ng panahon. Nao-overwhelmed tuloy ako. Kaya sabi nung mga nakapasa ko nang co-workers ko dun sa Dubai, huwag ko raw pahirapan sarili ko sa pagrereview. Major diseases lang daw nga. Huwag i-memorize, intindihin lang. OKAY! Sige ganun na nga lang!


Pero nonetheless, super happy ako. :)))))))))



PS: Pinangalanan ko itong blog kong ito ng Everything but love life kasi sabi ko, malas ako sa parteng yun kaya ayoko na lang iblog. Pero mukhang these last few entries ko e tungkol dun. Hmmmm... Baka mapalitan ko na rin yung title ng blog kong ito a! Hahahaha. Joke. It's too early to say that. I'm just glad I have someone to cheer me up. :) (Shet, wala nang katapusang smiley ang entry na to a! hahaha)


Saturday, February 20, 2010

The sturdy walls

Believe it or not, I started reviewing just a few minutes ago for my oral examinations on the 15th of April. Then I got bored just by scanning my thick (actually my friend's since I borrowed it from her) Medical-Surgical Nursing book. Gahd! Why do we have to take examinations all the time?! Tsk.


So I'll just make a short blog entry about an sms sent to me yesterday by a friend:

They met...

But the timing isn't right..

She has her reasons and he has his..

They're both confused..

So they decided to part ways..

She wants him to wait, he said he will..

Whatever it takes..

Years later, they saw each other again..

..but too much time has passed..

too late to make it work..

Lesson?

People change, so does the heart..

Seize the moment..

For in truth..

Nobody waits forever. :(




----> made me more scared than ever! haha If you are a friend of mine who's been reading this blog for quite some time, you probably read my entry about me having my walls to prevent myself from getting hurt all the time. Mind you, it isn't easy to have those. Most of the time, I feel like I have two persons inside me, telling me to believe and be positive, and the other one telling me the exact opposite. Sometimes, I'd like to lower down my walls just to at least give someone a chance or the benefit of the doubt that maybe, just maybe, he won't hurt me like the previous ones. But since these walls of mine are built after a long time now, they became a bit sturdier than before, that even I could not break it. I'm still dwelling with trust issues, insecurities, and a lot of pressure from my responsibilities that I must accomplish within a short span of time.

I sometimes thought that I hope I never built that walls in the first place. After all, being hurt and scared are all part of loving. It is not always rainbows and butterflies. In order for love to grow and be strong, we should take chances and believe that there is still a happy ending. Because if we continue to be scared of being hurt again, then we'll never be able to love and be loved again.


Then I saw this status message from my friend in facebook:

"The thing is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just have to choose who is worth the pain."





As of now, I'm still in the process of trying to break down my walls. But maybe, taking a shot at this time is worth giving a try. I don't know. We never know what's the best decision anyway unless we try.




Pero natatakot pa rin akong maramdaman ulit ang selos, paranoia, disappointments, and everythAng else na kaakibat ng feeling na ayokong maramdaman sa ngayon!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Oh hello, Manila!

I am back. Nung Vday pa. Humabol! hehe

Ika-3rd day ko na ngayon. Ano nang nagawa ko? Puros kaartehan pa lang naman! Hahaha. Pampering myself and bonding with my BFF. :) Pero inaayos ko na rin naman yung mga papeles na kailangan ko. Pumunta nga ko sa school ko kanina na pinag-aralan ko nung elem at highschool. Nagrequest ng TOR at diploma. 1 week ko pa hihintayin. So, that leaves me, 3 weeks? Ipupunta ko pa yun sa Dep ed na covered yung school ko. Bago ipunta sa DFA. At ipunta sa DHL para patatakan nila ng UAE embassy seal. Hindi ko alam kung kaya yan ng 1 month. Sana naman makaya. Kung hindi naman, siguro baka pwedeng ipa-DHL na lang din sa akin if ever makabalik na ako ng Dubai.

Magrereview rin ako. Sana this week, makagawa na ako ng reviewer para pwede ko na lang basa-basahin. Tapos siyempre, I have to allot time to spend time with my friends again. Feeling ko hindi talaga enough yung time para magawa ko lahat ng ito. Pero I have faith naman kay God at sa sarili ko. Kaya ko ito!







Hay, sa dami nito, san pa kita ilalagay sa schedule ko? Sa totoo lang, ginugulo mo lang buhay ko. Pero masaya naman ako na ikaw ang nanggugulo.. :)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

I Love this! :)

Hahaha.. I have always wanted to have animated pics/gif of my face. Finally!

Thanks to Gickr.com. Non-techie like me can make something like this in an instant! haha So love this! <3


I wonder if I can make this as my profile pic in facebook. Maybe not? Haha. O well, I also added my facebook account on the right side of this blog. However, I'll only add bloggers I know (through comments, blog roll, and tagboard).

So there. Camille is not an anonymous faceless blogger anymore. :)




Monday, February 8, 2010

Happy hearts day everyone!

For all the pics, credit goes to Plats. :)

Akala ko rin hindi about sa reporting ito! Haha.


Kung bakit kasi may mga pa-fall?! O di sana walang assuming!

Proven and affected! Haha


Or memorize talaga yung number niya! :)


Uh-hum... :o


A bit early for this greeting, I know. But I'm still anticipating Feb 14 of this year because of 3 reasons: PBB double up big night (Melay for the big winner! wohoo!!), expiration date of my visa (haha), and simply because it's Valentine's day. Who said it's only for couples? :)



                  

Again,

Happy Valentine's day! Much love and kisses!


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