A tribute to Rosanna Roces

... NOT!

I am not a fan of Rosanna but I like her before. Admit it. She still looks good in TV despite of her figure. She is brutally frank and just true to herself. But sometimes, she really goes too far.

(I know maybe to some people this issue is a week late especially to those in the Philippines, but I would just like to say my piece) Last week, she was a guest judge in Showtime, a noontime talent/variety show in ABSCBN. She made a nasty comment about teachers (which is totally out of the context) which made MTRCB suspend the said show.

Rosanna Roces comments on teachers goes like this :

“Murahin mo teacher mo ha, ako minura ko nung hindi nya nasagot sa akin yan. Walanghiya yang mga teacher na yan hindi sinasagot ang totoo sa atin eh.”

“Kayong mga kabataan huwag kayong makokontento sa itinuturo ng libro at ng teacher, magtatanong po kayo hindi masama iyon. Dahil ang mga teachers they were just repeaters. Itinuturo nila kung ano yung tinuro sa kanila, hindi na nila itinuturo kung anong gustong malaman ng mga bata.”

IMO...

I experienced having terror teachers, teachers who don’t know what they’re talking about, teachers who think they know everything (but actually they don’t), comical teachers who never earned their students’ respect, weird and out of this world teachers. But as what Vice Ganda said, teachers, as a human being, also make mistakes. I also had teachers who are very intelligent and passionate about their profession. I will be forever grateful to them for imparting their knowledge and for being our surrogate parents in school.

Special shout-out to my most favorite teachers all through-out my school life (Sorry if I’ve forgotten your complete names! Haha)

Ms. Racquel V. Quimba (adviser/Math teacher, 1st grade), Ms. Reyes (Math teacher, 2nd year highschool), Ms. Panganiban (Filipino teacher, 4th year highschool), Sir Origenes (Psychology/Social studies professor, 1st and 4th year college), Ma'am Rouena Villarama (Pediatrics professor/clinical instructor), Ma'am Elizabeth Jurado (Pediatrics professor/clinical instructor), Ma'am Delia Llanes (OB-Gyne Professor), and to Ma'am Cortez (Skills Lab/Fundamentals in Nursing professor/clinical instructor) who never failed to scold me everyday of our Nursing duty! Hahaha.

Thank you very much my dear Ma'ams and Sir! :)

PS: I salute Vice Ganda for standing up againts the nasty remarks of Osang. I am also one of Vice Ganda's fans in facebook! Hahaha.

And I hope MTRCB will resume the airing of Showtime as soon as possible. It is a very nice and entertaining show. Lots of people all over the world are watching it. It is not the network nor the show's mistake that Osang made that comment. Please be fair MTRCB.

Credits to: Pinoyambisyoso.com

Yihee para sa 2010!

(Ok, so Tagalog ito sa ngayon)

Sa totoo lang, ayokong gumawa ng ganito. Sabi ko nga di ba sa previous entries ko, ayoko na masyadong gawing personal ang blog na ito. Pero there are times like this na I can't help it! So since ako naman ang may-ari ng blog na ito, e dapat lang na wala ng explanations di ba? Haha!

Para sa iyo,

Parehas tayong maraming problema as of now. Maraming bagay na iniisip, inaayos, and we're trying our best to be better persons. Natutuwa ako kasi magkalayo man tayo ngayon, you never fail to make me feel your concern for me. Minsan or siguro most of the time ayaw kitang kausapin kasi ayokong umasa at masaktan ulit. Ayokong madevelop sa iyo nang todong-todo. Magulo pa kasi ang buhay ko sa ngayon e. Gusto ko sana kapag pumasok na ako sa isang relationship, okay na ako. Maayos na ang career ko (hahaha.. Lord, alam mo na ito. Ako kasi hindi ko pa gets masyado), hindi na ako magulo magdesisyon, matapang na ako, at higit sa lahat, sigurado na ako sa feelings ko. So kailangan pa talaga natin ng time. Mahabang time. Ikaw rin naman e. You still have some issues to fix.

Pero gusto ko lang malaman mo, na sa mga oras na down ako, natutuwa ako kasi nandiyan ka para kausapin ako. Salamat sa mga kwento at pieces of advice. Ewan ko. Hindi ako sure. Pero feeling ko, may magic na. May kilig factor ka na sa akin. PERO pinipigilan ko pa rin! Hahaha. Ewan ko ba. Ayoko kasing maging super happy with this feeling tapos mawawala rin naman nang bigla. Gusto ko kasi talaga, yung sure na. Sabi sa iyo, magulo ako talaga e.

Alam mo ba (yuck ang corny neto promise), sa tuwing kausap kita, nae-excite na ako, napapa-smile at napapatawa na ako, kinakabahan ako, nilalamig ang mga kamay ko, at nagkakaroon din ako ng goosebumps. Minsan nga namumula pa tenga ko e! Hahaha. Shet. Ayoko nito e. Kinokontrol ko pa rin talaga kasi ang emotions ko. At FYI, kaya ko pa naman. Kontrolado ko pa naman as of now. Hindi ko nga alam kung tama ba na ganito ako e. Urung-sulong. Pero sabi ko nga kasi sa iyo, takot lang akong masaktan ulit. Sabi mo nga, ang taas ng bakod/walls ko sa sarili ko. At sabi mo rin, ikaw rin. Takot ka na rin sa ngayon. So ano na mangyayari sa atin kung ganito tayo? Hahaha.

Bahala na. Siguro ipaubaya na lang natin talaga kay Bro at sa tamang panahon. Oo, naniniwala pa rin ako na kung tayo talaga ang para sa isa't-isa, harangin man tayo ng sandamakmak na sibat, e tayo talaga. ANG KASO LANG, andami ko nang nasabihan nang ganun e hindi naman talaga nagtagal! Hahaha. So, bahala na talaga.

Gusto ko lang malaman mo (as if talaga mababasa mo ito di ba?), na sa tingin ko kahit dapat maging malungkot at hopeless na ako sa mga nangyayari sa akin sa ngayon, e isa ka sa mga dahilan kung bakit masaya pa rin ako. Sana huwag kang mawala at kayanin natin ang distance, time, duration, proximity at kung ano pang nasa pagitan natin. Pipilitin ko rin namang umalalay pa rin sa iyo at hindi mawala sa tabi mo. Sana kayanin natin. :)

Ayoko na. Tama na. Cheesy na. END na.

Improvised bacon wrapped with apple slices

I just started learning how to cook last year.. haha. And today, since I'm home alone, I decided to make an experiment. We have some turkey bacon left-overs in the ref and I was thinking what else I can do with it aside from frying. I searched the net and found out that it can be cooked with apples. Lucky, we have sooo many apples here because of last new year's celebration. So there, with those two main ingredients, I made an improvised Bacon wrapped with apple slices. :)

What you need:

Butter (I used lard on this one since we dont have unsalted butter)

Onion

Brown sugar (but we dont have so I used white which was okay I guess)

Salt

Pepper

Marjomar (it's some kind of spices. and we have it here in the kitchen. hurray!)

Bacon strips

Apple slices (peeled)

Steps:

1. Fry the bacon strips in the pan. Don't make it crispy. Just right and still flexible. Then removed it from the pan.
2. Using the same pan, put lard, onions, salt and pepper, then sugar. Mix it all together until it caramelized. Just add water if needed.
3. Put on the sliced apples and mix with the sauce.
4. Put the half-cooked bacon strips and mix everything again.

and voila! My masterpiece. My first-ever non-supervised recipe! :)

It's yummy, really! Haha.. and I'm not exaggerating here. The apple slices are still crunchy and the sauce is sweet and oh so good! :)

I actually enjoyed cooking. Eventhough, of course, I'm still not an expert, especially when chopping onions, but I'm getting there. Maybe this is what I ought to be doing. Maybe I'm meant to be a chef! Haha

PS: Bacon wrapped with apple slices, as the name suggests, the bacon should be wrapped on the apple slices. But since we don't have toothpick here to put them together I just mixed everything in the pan! *grin*

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

I'm at home having a very painful back. Don't know if it's still because of my scoliosis or because of 8 hours sitting in front of the computer, sending resumes in all the hospitals/clinics/polyclinics here in Dubai. I also have black-stained fingers because of frequent scanning of classified ads in newspapers.

Am I losing hope? Well... honestly, a bit. I'm really an optimistic person. But sometimes, I just can't help it. :(

I'm a nurse who doesn't know which path should I really be taking. I love arts and yes, most of the time I wish that I should have taken Fine Arts instead of Nursing. But don't get me wrong. I don't despise Nursing. It's just that, maybe, I'm not given the chance to be included in a well-known tertiary hospital where I can learn and improve my nursing skills.

I'm a mediocre nursing student. I have average grades in Nursing subjects back in College. My best subjects were Statistics, Asian Civilization, Social Studies, and PE, specifically football! Haha. Subjects which are not really needed in Nursing!

Do I love having duties in the hospital? Yes and No.

I'm really not used to emergency situations. I'm not expert at putting IV cannulas. Usually, I palpitate and get nervous whenever I was having patients who were suffering terribly in pain. I don't have sufficient knowledge and experience in treating all diseases, which makes me a little bit unconfident to be a nurse.

But whenever I'm doing nursing interventions and I get it right the first time, it really makes my heart leap. :) I enjoy blood, wounds, pus, and everything icky and yucky coming out from the patients (except for urine and poop, of course. Who would have want that?!). And believe it or not, I'm compassionate about my patients. The feeling is priceless whenever I get genuine gratitude from my patients. That really makes me feel that I'm making a difference. I'm someone in this world. I'm worthy.

Does that mean I am qualified as a nurse? I don't know. But I remember, before I made my decision to take a degree in Nursing, I asked God for a sign. That if I pass the exam and interview in the university where I graduated, then I'm definitely meant to be a nurse. Not only that, He made me passed my 4 years in Nursing without failing marks, and even made me passed the Nursing Licensure exam.

And to add a bonus on that one, He made me practiced my profession in a foreign country for a year eventhough I didn't have any working experience in my home land!


So am I really meant to be a nurse? What if I'm pursuing a wrong path? What if I should be doing something else where I can really excel and be happy about?


Oh God, this is really, really, really hard. I just pray that someday (in the near future I hope), I would know what's meant for me and what's my real purpose in life.

Throughout the whole day, the lyrics of the song entitled The Show by Lenka, were playing through my mind. It's as if the letters of the song were teasing me...

"I'm just a little bit caught in the moment, life is a maze and love is a riddle. I don't know where to go, can't do it alone, I've tried. I've got to let it go... and just enjoy the show."

Maybe that's what God is telling me as of this moment. Stop worrying of so many things that I should not be worrying about in the first place and just enjoy my journey. Eventhough depression is really kicking in this time (maybe due to hormonal imbalance again), I know all these obstacles that I'm facing will be all worth it in the end. :)

In fact, these obstacles are not really obstacles compared to the problems other people are having! I should be thankful that I still have a wonderful life with my loved-ones and friends despite of my mind-boggling queries about life.. hehe

Anyway, on the lighter side, my college friends had a mini-reunion today in Trinoma (where else? haha) and I really wish I was there. Funny because eventhough I wasn't there anymore, the meeting place was still in Red Ribbon inside Trinoma. That place became very memorable for me. It became the meeting place whenever my friends (from gradeschool, highschool, and college) and I would plan for a get-together. It was also the place where I met my blogmates...

and so as some other people I just met this year, I mean last year! haha *wink*

Ekspleyn

Sa loob ng humigit-kumulang 5 years of blogging ko, masasabi kong ibang-iba ako sa blog kong ito. Marami akong blogs noon at 3 na lang ang existing sa ngayon pero yung dalawa hindi ko na masyado naa-update. Bukod sa puros kadramahan, kaartehan, at ka-bitteran ang mga pinagsusulat ko dun sa mga dati na hindi ko maisulat masyado rito, ay English ang napili kong language sa blog kong ito... hahaha. Hindi para mag-inarte, magmalaki, o kung anuman. Ang pagkakaiba kasi ng pagsulat ko ng English na blog entry, mas naiisip ko yung mga sinusulat ko. Mas naiisip ko kung dapat ko pa bang ilagay itong topic na ito o hindi na. Kung Tagalog kasi, go lang ako ng go. Hala, sige. Banat ng banat. I don't care kung puros kapathetican ang mga pinagsusulat ko noon, na sa tuwing babasahin ko, ay madalas na napapahawak ako sa noo ko at napapasabing OMG! at napapatanong kung bakit ko pa sinulat ang mga yun. Oo marami akong pinagsisihang sinulat na entries noon na gusto ko sanang i-delete kaso marami nang nakabasa nun. At in fairness naman, hindi naman lahat pinagsisisihan kong isulat. Yung iba naman, natatawa ako at na-a-amazed ako sa sarili ko ngayon na parang nagmatured na ako kesa dun sa nakaraang ako na nagsulat nung blog entry na yun.

Pero meron din akong mga nakuhang violent reactions sa mga taong nagbabasa ng blogs ko noon. Yung iba pa nga talagang i-sesend nila as private message sa akin. At sa maniwala man kayo't sa hindi, nagkaroon din ako ng stalkers dahil sa mga pinopost ko noon. Nakakatawa na nakakainis na pinag-aksayahan pa nila ng panahon di ba. To think na may karapatan naman ako sa freedom of speech at wala silang pakialam sa blog ko.

Sa totoo lang, ang dami kong gustong ikuwento sa blog na ito, ang dami kong gustong i-post na pictures, links, etc, pero mas controlled na ang posting ko rito. Kumbaga sa TV shows, may MTRCB na. Ganun na ngayon ang blog kong ito. Hindi na lahat sinasabi ko, hindi na lahat pinopost ko, at hindi na masyadong personalized. Usually ang mga nilalagay ko na nga lang dito ay general topic e.

Nakakamiss din yung dati kong style ng pagbablog. Actually, mas masaya ako sa ganung style. Pero kasi, naisip ko naman, hindi naman kasi lahat ng information or emotions ko, kailangan ko i-divulge sa public.

Pero minsan kasi, wala akong mapagsabihan ng mga agam-agam ko sa buhay at gusto ko sana i-blog. Kaso, dahil nga controlled na ang pagpopost ko sa blog na ito, hindi ko na naitutuloy i-post. Kaya ang ending, lahat ng mga bagay-bagay na dapat naisulat ko na sa blog na dapat nakapagpagaan na ng nararamdaman ko ngayon ay nasa utak ko pa rin. Asar!

Di bale. Siguro after a few days/weeks, lilipas din itong mga ito. This too shall pass again.

Pero namimiss ko pa rin yung mga dati kong blogs. :(

But I am now, I believe, is a better and grown-up person writing in this blog. :)