Happy 2010

Am I excited for the coming year? Actually, to tell you honestly, no. If I have superpowers I want to freeze everything around me, especially time. Then while everything was stopped, I, on the otherhand, will have all the time to improve myself. But in reality, we are all living in a fast-paced life and we should hang on tight because we'll never know that we might be the only one stranded and left alone.

2009...Hmmmm... I don't know if it's really that bad for me. Well, this year, I had so many confusions in life most especially regarding career and matters of the heart. But this year also gave me the time to spend with my loved-ones and friends. I also had a lot of lessons learned. I think 2009 made me a better person. :)

So for the year 2010, I'm making 30 (20+10) resolutions. I don't usually make New year resolutions because I always end up messing them but hey, it's a new year and a new start for a new me.

My 30 resolutions for the year 2010

1. Be organized. Just by seeing this resolution makes me want to say, "Ugh!". I'm really a messy person. And I kinda like it that way! haha.. I don't know why but I can't find what I'm looking for if my place is neat. But if it's cluttered like the way I'm used to, voila! It's like I have an x-ray vision of all the things that I needed. But since it's new year and I'm already matured and a better person *wink*, then ok. I'll try to be organized this year.
2. Don't procrastinate.
3. Learn how to cook more. Take note, I added the word "more". Before this year started, I really don't know how to cook. As in zero, nada, nay. But because of determination (haha), I learned how to fry sunny side ups and other cold cuts. Just a few weeks after I came here in Dubai, my aunt taught me how to make Sinigang by using lemon instead of the tamarind mix we're used to. I also know now how to cook rice... but by only using rice cooker! Haha.. C'mon, give me a little more time and I know I'll be better someday. I'll be a good home-maker. :)
4. Do the laundry often.
5. Make the beddings neat right after waking up in the morning.
6. Limit using unnecessary websites, especially games in facebook which use a lot of time!
7. Be more focused. I think I know now where I'm going. :)
8. Limit criticizing/mocking people. Sorry, I just can't help it sometimes. I know I'm just a human being who makes mistakes, but this is really inevitable. But I promise to lessen this hobby this year.
9. Take a bath for only 15-20 minutes. I can't help it if I have to use conditioner all the time so it takes an hour at least for me to be finished! Haha. But yeah, I'll cut off my bathing time this year.
10. Sleep early and at least 8 hours a day.
11. Eat MORE (if not all) fruits.
12. Eat MORE (if not all) vegetables.
13. Drink 8 (if not more) glasses of water a day.
14. LIMIT EATING SWEETS. I typed it in all caps since I know this is a very difficult task for me. I don't know if I'm having a behavioral disorder about this but I just find myself sometimes battling whether to eat more sweets or not. Like if I tasted a piece of chocolate, after I savored its sweetness for just a few seconds, I crave for more and more until I already finished the whole box! And I always end up losing the battle because I always give in to sweets. :(
15. Take vitamins regularly and never forget it.
16. Exercise! Another Ugh! But I really need this because I have scoliosis and everyday now is a problem for me because my back hurts more frequently than before.
17. Relax and be cool. Stop stressing myself.
18. Be more optimistic.
19. Pray more.
20. Go to mass more often.
21. Sing with the choir during mass.
22. Stop complaining. Do the task first and if the task is successfully done, then don't complain anymore.
23. Call Lola and Lolo more often.
24. Limit answering back to parents, especially to mom. Oh dear God, please help me on this one.
25. Always make a plan before making a big decision. Think about pros and cons
26. Keep in touch with friends and never take them for granted.
27. Always be a good samaritan and offer help when needed.
28. DON'T SPEND MORE THAN WHAT I'M EARNING.
29. Save, save, save money!!!
30. Learn to accept, be happy and contented for what I have. Stop asking for too much.

So there. I'll just hope this year will bring us more luck, joy, and peace in everybody.

I'll end this one by sharing you an inspirational quote from my God's message application in facebook:

"If you focus on problems, you will have more problems. If you focus on possibilities, you will have more opportunities."

Cheers to all of us for the coming 2010! Happy new year everyone!!! :)

Anti-stress buster :)

I've been going through a tough time but one thing that really makes me happy the whole day? watching PBB double up in Pinoychannel.tv! hahaha. I really love the housemates and of course, I'm a certified Melason fan! (Di ba, Aubrey? hehe)

Since I'm a fan of them in facebook, I saw this video. This is Jason and Melissa's funny themesong. Mahal kita kasi sang by Nicole Hyala (a DJ in Love Radio). It's really a corny song so if you're not into these kind of things, well, just don't play it. But for those of you who are fun-loving, hopeless romantic, and jologs as I am, then go. This is for us! Haha Enjoy! :)

My favorite line was: Apoy ka ba? Kasi (kasi)... alab alab... alabyu!!! :)

I don't know about you but if a boy sings this to me, he would really sweep me off my feet!

a little help

Dear God,

Please give me a stable mind to make the right decisions.

Amen.

PS: Advanced happy birthday Papa J. :)

Prayer in blogs really works for me. So I'm putting this one here. :)

Decision-making is the toughest task for me. Wasn't able to stand up on my own since I was born. I became so dependent with people around me that I always ask for their help. But now I really have to be strong and face my fears alone. I can do this! I have faith in myself and in the Lord. With Him, nothing is impossible.

And I'm really getting old and matured. Love it! :)

I really hate it

Take this scenario:

A boy and a girl hanging out for a few months (dining out, watching movies, calling each other, and the likes). As a girl, you feel/know there's something going on between the two of you. But of course you don't want to assume. The boy doesn't tell you anything except for the constant I had a great time with you, I miss you's, and the "pahaging" effects men usually do (C'mon, admit it. 99.9% of the male population does that). So one day, since the girl is really confused about what's the real score of their relationship, she confronted the guy. The guy finally admitted that he likes the girl and wants them to be more than friends (hallelujah!!!). But here's the catch: He wanted to give it a little more time since he's not sure if he's really over with his ex.

The moment I heard this from my friend, I palpitated a bit and started feeling so pissed off. I've been in this situation a lot of times and I know exactly how the girl feels.

Questions/Arguments running into my mind as my friend was telling this scenario to me:

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  Why did the guy started going out with another girl when he's not over with his past relationship?
  
  
  
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  Why did the girl confronted the guy when she can wait for a little more time for the guy to open-up?
  
  
  
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  Was the guy just looking for someone to divert his attention? a rebound perhaps?
  
  
  
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  Why did the girl let herself to actually "fall in love" with the guy who's not sure about his feelings for her?
  
  
  

But after writing this whole scenario again for the introduction of this blog entry, I've realized some things and these are my answers to my queries...

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  How did I ever ask the first question when in fact, I, myself, have done this to someone a few years back. Yes, I went out with someone to divert my feelings for someone special. I don't have any bad intentions at that time, really. I don't want to use him and take his feelings for granted. My original plan before was to give this other suitor a chance and if everything went well, I can finally ditch my special someone. But, unfortunately, it didn't work out. I broke his heart and wasn't able to mend mine as well. So maybe, the guy's plan here was just to have fun and forget his loneliness which I think is somewhat acceptable (haha!).
  
  
  
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  For some reasons, men really like the "chase". They really want to keep the guessing game alive, whether the girl already likes him or not. Well, that's what most of my male friends told me. But another boy friend (platonic---hope not! haha) of mine has a different view about this topic. He said, if the guy really likes the girl, and he found out that the girl also likes him, then that's it! He's already in cloud nine. So I say, the boy in this scenario is still confused about his feelings not only for his ex, but also for the girl he's been hanging out with.
  
  
  
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  Refer to the first answer.
  
  
  
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  I think it's better if we can get the girl (who is actually involved in the scenario) for her answer about this one.. hehe. But here's what I say. As a girl who's been in this kind of situation before, we really cannot control our feelings towards each other. It is very difficult. No matter how high you put up your walls to guard your emotions, we can't do anything when our heart already made a decision.
  
  
  

So my advice for the girl, READ THIS.

And for the boy...

I actually wanted to tell you a lot of things. But after analyzing the whole situation, I understand that you're also a human and not different from us, girls. I just hope you figure-out your real feelings soon because you might lose them both. Oopps, my bad. I mean, you actually lose your girlfriend, but now you might also lose your friend.

PS: I have a teenie-weenie small confession to make. :) I'm actually (almost) at the same boat with the girl in the scenario above (but promise, the scenario is not about me). The only difference is that I never confronted the guy, even until now. That's what I've learned from my experiences before. Never ask when you know there's no definite answer to your question.

PPS: To my girl friend (again, platonic) who's reading this. Yes, you are the girl I've been referring to! hehe. And I hope you've learned your lessons from your past experiences which are all the same (don't you think?). Please be wiser this time. Love you much! :*

PPPS: After so much deliberations and sighs, I don't hate the scenario that much anymore. But I won't change the title anymore (redundant. noticed it too).

PPPPS: I'm just adding another post-script so it won't be three like the last time.. haha. So okay, I'll end it here.

In choosing the one

1. It's not enough that he's cute.

2. It's not enough that he has nice set of teeth.

3. It's not enough that he has perfect skin.

4. It's not enough that he's kind.

5. It's not enough that he's small (the height i mean. *evil grin*)

6. It's not enough that he's smart.

7. It's not enough he can make you laugh.

8. It's not enough that he has a good body (even how DEYMN HOT it is).

9. It's not enough that he has a car.

10. It's not enough that he's a good cook.

11. It's not enough that he has a lot of good ideas.

12. It's not enough that he's very thoughtful.

13. It's not enough that he's a hopeless-romantic like you do.

14. It's not enough that he's rich.

15. It's not enough that he has a good diction and proper grammar usage.

16. It's not enough that he apologizes for anything stupid he did (even if it was your mistake actually! hehe)

17. It's not enough that he's bald.

18. It's not enough that he had long hair.

19. It's not enough that he's a good listener.

20. It's not enough even if you have so many, as in sooooo many things in common.

But he's just a boy...

he doesn't understand

how it feels to love a girl

he doesn't care how it hurts

until he lose the one he wanted

cause he's taken her for granted

and everything they had got destroyed.

PS: This is just out of boredom and not about me. Promise! :)

PPS: I really want to post my Dubey pics here and in my fb but I'm still waiting for the good news.. so later!

PPPS: this is me and my good hair day pic! Hehe... My hair is getting longer now. Thank goodness! :)

Random thoughts

I saw this video while browsing what's new in youtube. This is the goodbye song from PBB double up everytime someone gets evicted from the house.

It's Gonna Make Sense - Michael Learns To Rock

It has nice lyrics, don't you think? Very inspiring. :)

I really believe in the saying that everything happens for a reason. There's a purpose why we met a certain person once in our life. There's an answer why we ended up like this, may it be different from what we dreamt of when we were young. Along our way, we will find difficulties to test how strong we really are. We have a lot of questions and we're not sure about the answers.

But someday, in His right time, all these pieces will fall into their places.

Someday, it's gonna make sense. :)

Cheesy

Sorry for being a corny, hopeless romantic but stuff like this really makes my day! :)