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Isa sa mga natanggap kong emails ay nagrequest na i-post ko raw ang experience ko during my DOH exam last April 15. Kaya ikukwento ko na lang kahit ligwak ang beauty ko.. hahaha.

Ganito yun...

3pm ang exam ko sa Rashid Hospital-Auditorium/Library. Sa mga mag-e-exams at walang service kagaya ko, papasukin niyo yung taxi sa may bandang loob ng Rashid hospital. Huwag kayo magpahatid dun lang sa may labas dahil medyo malayo pa yung building. Take note: Separate ang building ng Auditorium/Library ng Rashid Hospital kesa dun sa mismong ospital. Brown building yun. Sa may bandang likod. Kasi kung lalakarin niyo lang e goodluck sa init.

O di nakita ko na rin yung building after mga 30 minutes na paghanap nun (kasi nga hindi ko pinapasok yung taxi sa may loob). E nako, wala pang tao. 2 Indians pa lang ang naka-upo dun sa may parang canteen. Nginitian ko since friendly naman ako. Ngumiti rin yung Indian girl at nilapitan ako at tinanong kung mag-e-exam nga rin ako.

Indian girl: You've worked in which department?

Ako: ER. You?

Indian girl: Pediatrics. How many years?

Ako: Only 1 year. You? (haha.. puros "you" e noh)

Indian girl: Me too. One year. 6 months in Pediatrics and 4 months in general.

Ako: (Umandar ang pagiging pakialamera. Nakita ko yung lalakeng Indian na kasama niya. Mukhang matanda kesa sa kanya) Is that your father?

Indian girl: (Laughs) No. He's my husband.

Ako: (Laughs) Oh, sorry! (covers face)

Indian girl: It's ok. (sabay balik sa table. kinuwento siguro sa asawa at yung asawa e lumabas ng building.. hahaha)

Matagal-tagal ako naghintay. Kasi 2pm ako dumating e. 8 Indians ang andun for examinations tapos 3 pinoy kami. Dumating na yung mga mag-iinterview. Lumabas yung isa. Matandang babae na naka-abaya na mukhang masungit. Tinawag kaming lahat at sinabi kung pang-ilan kami sa mga tatawagin nila. Pangatlo ako.

Maliit lang yung room na pinagka-conductan ng interview. Parang yung table sa mga meetings sa office yung table dun tapos kaharap mo yung 3 panelists. 3 babae yung panelists namin at that time. Yung matandang babae na naka-abaya na mukhang masungit na tumawag sa amin kanina, isang babaeng mukhang African, at saka isang British female na naka-abaya. Kaya alam kong British kasi sa accent (hindi ko maintindihan kasi nung una.. haha).

Bago ako tawagin, hindi ko na maintindihan yung nararamdaman ko noon. Basta, may bad feeling ako e. Pagbaba ko kasi ng taxi, napigtas yung personalized keychain na remembrance sa akin ng BFF ko sa pinas. Feeling ko masamang sign yun.. hahaha. Para akong naiihi na nauuhaw na nilalamig. Buti hindi ako hinimatay.. hehe.

Paglabas ng naunang examinee kesa sa iyo, hindi ka muna dapat papasok. Titingin ka dun sa glass door para kapag sinenyasan ka nung mga panelists na pwede ka nang pumasok, saka ka pa lang papasok. Kasi sabi nila baka pumasok na lang daw dun basta-basta e hindi pa nila tapos pag-usapan yung naunang examinee.

E di ako na. Sinenyasan na nila ako na pwede na kong pumasok...

Ako: Good afternoon madame.

Panelist 2 (P2): Good afternoon. Have a sit. Tell us something about your experience.

Ako: I graduated Bachelor of Science in Nursing last 2007. I have worked in Bahrain for a year. I've worked in Dr.******** Diabetic clinic and ****** hospital. It is a 50-bedded private hospital. I was assigned in ER, OPD, and In-patient ward.

P1(yung mukhang masungit): Why did you leave Bahrain?

Ako: Because I have to go back to Philippines to fix something important.

P1: Why don't you just go back in Bahrain? Why here in Dubai? (Parang ang sakit na ng ulo niya. Nakahawak sa ulo niya habang nakapatong yung siko sa table)

Ako: (Medyo nairita kasi kulang na lang sabihin sa akin huwag ako magtrabaho rito) Because I'm already here in Dubai, madame. My aunt sponsored me for a visit visa and she said to try to take the exam.

P1: Where were you assigned again? (Hindi pa nakikinig sa akin kanina!)

Ako: In ER madame.

P1: Only there?

Ako: In in-patient ward madame.

P1: In-patient? What's that?

Ako: It's also a medical ward madame.

P1: It's a medical ward. You have to tell us that because we don't know what in-patient means. We don't use it here.

P1: Ok. Tell me something about congestive heart failure.

Ako: It occurs when the heart cannot pump adequate blood to supply the oxygen demand in the body.

P1: Due to?

Ako: (Nawindang kasi yan lang yung naaalala ko about CHF. MI na yung naaalala ko) Because there is blockage or ischemia...

P1: NO.

Ako: The heart cannot pump adequate blood supply because.... the left ventricle of the heart is weakened..

P1: NO. Your first part of your definition is correct but the second one is not. How do you treat patients with CHF?

Ako: *Panic mode* (MI na talaga naiisip ko rito!) Nitroglycerine?

P1: NO.

Ako: Beta-blockers, calcium-channel blockers...

P1: NO. NO. (Tumayo para ayusin yung aircon. Akala ko hahambalusin na niya ko sa mga pinagsasasabi ko).

P2: What happens when there is congestion?

Ako: The heart cannot pump adequate blood supply to the lungs therefore the lungs cannot supply oxygenated blood back to the system.

P1: Do you even know what is Angina?

Ako: It is episodes/paroxysms of pain which occurs in the anterior chest which cannot be relived by rest or medicines.

P1: Cannot be relieved?

Ako: Ay, no, no madame. It can be relieved by rest or medicines. MI is the one which cannot be relieved by both.

P3: When you're in the hospital, what things should you check before giving medications to the patient?

Ako: The doctor's order, name of the patient...

P3: How will you know if that's the right patient?

Ako: You can ask the patient his/her name and verify if that's the name written on the chart.

P3: What if the patient is unconscious?

Ako: You can also check the patient's name tag on the wrist. Or you can ask the relatives for verification.

P3: What else should you check before giving medications?

Ako: Right route, right dose, right time, right drug, right patient.

P1: How many did you give us?

Ako: 5 madame.

P1: What are those again? (Hindi siya talaga nakikinig sa akin!)

Ako: (Inulit ulit lahat)

P2: When the patient has IV therapy, usually there are some complications. Could you give us some?

Ako: Phlebitis, fluid overload...

P2: How will you know if there is fluid overload?

Ako: Hmmm... The patient will have dyspnes, crackles... (wala na maisip.. haha)

P3: What will happen to the hands, feet?

Ako: Ah yeah. Edema!

P2: What other complications can you give?

Ako: That's all I can remember madame. (Nalimutan ko yung infection)

P2: Ok Camille, your interview is over. The results will be available on Monday. You can check it online or give us a call. (Imagine, Thursday ako nag-exam. Friday at Saturday walang government offices dito. Sunday wala pa result. Monday pa talaga nagkaroon. Imagine how many days ako waiting in vain!)

Ayun. At sad to say, hindi nga ako nakapasa. :( Pero siguro naman sa susunod, mas hindi na ako kakabahan as compared nung una. At saka alam ko na kung saan ako magfo-focus. Hindi ko na kakabisaduhin yung ibang hindi naman talaga kailangan like GCS kasi hindi naman ako neuro-nurse. Neurotic lang.. haha

TIP:

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  Be relaxed.
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  Huwag masyado magreview. Huwag OA gaya ko. Focus on major diseases, especially in the department you've worked before.
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  It's okay to say, "I'm sorry madame I don't know the answer." Pero magdasal ka na kung sinabi mo yan sa major question na tinanong sa iyo kasi dapat yun ang masasagot mo. Kagaya nung sa akin kasi CHF yung major dun e. Kaya sobrang feel ko na bagsak ako kahit hindi naman ako nabokya sa buong interview :(

Ayun lang.

Goodluck to those who will take the DOH exam!

PS: Ang dami kong kwento. Like nakalipat na ako sa accommodation namin kaya super independent na ako. Busy ako sa work na rin. At hindi na ako sad at emo about love kasi... hahaha.. secret :)

Abangan ang susunod na kabanata!

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Thanks a lot everyone. Godbless! More updates to come, promise. <3

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Wow!

Natuwa naman ako at may nagsend sa email ko asking me about sa isa kong blog entry.. hehe

 

Sender:

 

hi, I am maybel, nurse din. Nabasa ko kasi ung blog mo about sa paghahanap mo ng work jan sa middle east. Help naman po, gusto ko rin kasi magtrabaho jan sa middle east ang hirap makanap ng work dito sa pinas as a nurse. 3 months lang ang experience ko kaya nag hirap din humanap ng agency, hingi sana ako ng advice, mas maganda ba na mag tourist visa muna ako jan sa dubai den hanap ako ng work pag anjan na... help naman.. desperate na ko maghanap ng work... hay,,, thanks and God bless you

 

 

Dear Maybel (yehes ate charo naman ang dating ko nito.. hehe),

 

Hindi ko maipapayo sa iyo na mag-Dubai ka. Sa totoo lang gurl, recession din dito. I was here last December pa. Tourist visa ako noon na good for 2 months. Ang hirap makahanap ng work as a nurse kasi mas pinipili nila dito na may license ka na rito. In order for you to work here as a nurse, you have to pass an oral exam. Sa Dept. of Health ng Dubai. Magtatanong sila sa iyo ng anything about nursing na tumatagal ng 15 mins. And well, kaka-exam ko lang a week ago at sad to say, ligwak ang beauty ng lola mo.. hahaha. Buti na lang mabait yung employer ko kaya vivisahan pa rin nila ako at after 2 months, magte-take ulit ako ng exams na sumalangit nawa ay pumasa ako. Magfocused ka magreview sa area na naassignan ka. Kasi ako sa ER ako nakapagwork. E kaso nagmamagaling ako kaya lahat kinabisado ko at hindi nagfocused masyado dun kaya sumemplang.. hahaha.

 

Pero 3 months kamo ang experience mo? Kasi gurl, before they allow you to take the exam here, you need to pass their assessment. Eto mga kailangan mo ha:

• UAE authenticated credentials (HS diploma, TOR, certificate of graduation; College diploma at TOR; PRC license). Yung sa HS credentials, dadalhin mo yun sa Deped kung saan covered yung school mo. Tapos bibigyan ka ng claim stub ng Deped at kukunin mo na yun sa DFA na naka-red ribbon na. Tapos yung sa college credentials mo naman, punta ka sa university na pinaggraduate-an mo at ask mo paano ipa-authenticate yung mga yun. Kasi yung sa akin, sila na nagprocess hanggang sa CHED. Tapos sa school ko na lang kinlaim lahat yun na nakared-ribbon na rin. Nagbayad lang ako. Yung PRC license mo, ipipila mo yun sa DFA. For personal purpose yata kasi yun. Unsure ako sa parteng yan kasi tita ko nag-ayos nun e.. haha. Anyways, kapag nakared-ribbon na ung lahat ng credentials mo, punta ka sa DHL at sabihin mo ipapa-UAE authenticate mo yung mga yun. Php 1,700 per document. so bale, 1,700 x 3 (HS, College, PRC license).
• Working experience from previous employer. Baka dito ka magkaproblem kasi sabi mo nga 3 months pa lang ang experience mo. Hinahanap kasi nila at least nakabuo ka ng 450 hours sa pagtatrabaho mo. Ikaw na magcompute ineng kung nakaabot naman yung duty hours mo.
• Passport copy
• Offer letter from employer (eto lang naman ay kung swertihin kang makahanap ng employer na maayos. Kapag may employer ka, mas mababa ang babayaran mo sa exam. Kapag wala, tumataginting na Php 25k!)
• Passport pictures

Just for you to have an idea kung ano ba ang pinagsasabi kong red-ribbon (hindi ito cake! haha), eto ang images. Plus yung UAE embassy seal na sinasabi ko rin:

(Paper siya sa harapan ng bawat credentials mo na nagpapatunay na lahat ng mga yun ay totoo)

Ayun lang gurl. Yan lang naman kasi ang naexperience ko dito kaya yan ang maipapayo ko. Pero may iba rin namang sinwerte at nakahanap agad. Ikaw na lang ang bahala magdesisyon.

Pero ganun pa man, salamat sa pagbasa ng aking blog at pagsend ng inquiry. :)

Lovelots,

Camille *cutiemaartie.blogspot.com*

What I've been reviewing...

Sterilization is the eradication of all forms of microbial life including endospores which are the most resistant.
Disinfection is the reduction of vegetative pathogens which are non-endospore forming.

CATEGORIES OF STERILIZATION:
1. Critical - instruments which comes in contact with the bones
2. Semi-critical - instruments which comes in contant with soft tissues
3. Non-critical - instruments which comes in contact with intact skin
4. Single-use/Disposable - should be discarded every after patient

METHODS OF STERILIZATION:
1. Autoclave - superheated steam under pressure with time
                    - 240 degrees F, 15-20 pounds per square inch (pressure)
                    - uses distilled water
2. Chemclave - same as autoclave but uses chemical vapor instead of distilled water
                      - 270 degrees F, 15-20 pounds per square inch (pressure)
3. Dry-heat sterilization - used if the instruments will rust in the autoclave
                                    - instruments should be properly washed and dried first before putting into the machine



COPD - chronic obstructive pulmonary disease
           - irreversible respiratory disease which involves abnormal inflammatory response of the airways to noxious particles
           - chronic bronchitis and emphysema
   *Chronic bronchitis - presence of cough and production of phlegm for at least 3 months of each 2 consecutive years
   * Emphysema - destruction of walls due to abnormal overdistention of alveoli

Bronchial asthma - onset is during childhood and is reversible as one gets older or through treatment
         - involves hypermucosal edema

Pneumonia - usually caused by streptococcus pneumoniae; inflammation of the lung parenchyma

        - sudden, onset shaking/chills
        - rapidly rising fever
        - pleuritic chest pain
        - dyspnea, orthopnea

Tuberculosis - caused by mycobacterium tuberculi and mostly affects the lung parenchyma

       - night sweats
       - on/off fever
       - pleauritic chest pain
       - cough
       - dyspnea
       - hemoptysis

mantoux test/purified protein derivative - confirmatory test; 10 mm induration

Nursing intervention (usually for all resp diseases):
- fowler's position - lung expansion
- promote oxygenation - 2-4 L/min (if more than 50% of the concentration and given for an extended period like more than 48 hours, O2 toxicity might occur)
- deep breathing exercises
- chest physiotherapy
- increased fluid intake


Pulmonary Hypertension - systolic pulmonary artery pressure exceeds 30 mmhg/mean pulmonary artery pressure exceeds 25 mmhg
- mimic symptoms of R sided heart failure

Pulmonary embolism - there is an obstruction due to ischemia somewhere in the branches of the pulmonary artery

Angina pectoris - episodes/paroxysms of pain occurs in the anterior chest which lasts for 3-5 mins
           - may be due to ischemia
       
Myocardial infarction - the areas of the myocardial cells have been permanently damaged, so the myocardium receives reduced oxygenated blood

    - crushing, tight chest pain which radiates on the neck, jaw, arms lasting for longer period which cannot be relieved by rest/meds
    - diaphoresis
    - restlessness
    - anxiety
    - dyspnea

Nursing intervention:
- high fowler's position
- oxygenation
- feet should not be dangling, should either be dependent on bed or on floor
- avoid constricting clothing

Meds:
Nitroglycerine - decreases oxygen demand of the heart, decreases ischemia and pain
             - can be given up to 3 times only
             - burning sensation under tongue - drug potency

Beta blockers/calcium channel blockers - decreaser heart rate/contractility

Morphine - analgesic


Cardiac arrest - when the heart ceases to function producing inefficient pulse and blood flow
           - conciousness, BP, pulse will be lost
           - respiratory gasping may occur
           - dilatation of the eyes may occur within 45 seconds

Basic life support is an emergency procedure that consists of recognizing signs of cardiac or respiratory arrest or both, and giving proper CPR to maintain breathing and circulation of the patient until patient recovers or advanced life support arrives

Advanced cardiac life support is also like basic life support but it uses special equipments to prolong life

Do not start CPR when:
- patient has a tag of DNR (Do not resuscitate)
- no biological effect, signs of death are evident (rigor mortis, decapitation, etc.)
- in infants: less than 28 weeks of gestation, anencephaly, less than 20 gms

Stop CPR when:

- signs of recovery has been executed by the victim
- turning over to another rescuer.medical personnel
- operator/rescuer is exhausted
- physician assumes responsibility (do CPR, declares death)

Steps:
1. Survey the scene.
2. Assess the patient. Hey, hey, hey are you ok? Activate EMS.
3. Check for obstruction.
4. If no obstruction seen, check for breathing: (1001-1005)
5:  Not breathing, give 2 rescue breaths and observe for rising of the chest.
6. Check for pulse (1001-1010), carotid artery (if infant: brachial artery)
7. If no pulse, start CPR. 30 compressions: 2 rescue breaths; 5 cycles
8. Check again for pulse and breathing (1001-1010)
9. If breathing and pulse is restored, put in side lying position until EMS arrives.


Diabetes Mellitus - occurs when the person has high blood sugar level either due to insufficient production of insulin, or the body resists insulin.

DM type I
- juvenile type: onset is 30 y/o or younger
- insulin dependent DM: Beta cells of the islets of langerhans in the pancreas do not produce insulin
- treated by insulin:
          *rapid acting - onset is from 30 mins - 1 hour
                 - actrapid, humulin R
          *intermediate acting - onset is from 2 hr - 3hours
                 - humulin N, semilente
          *long-acting - onset is from 4-5 hours
                 - ultralente, monotard

DM type 2
- maturity onset is 40 y/o and above
- non-insulin dependent DM: beta cells of the islets of langerhans in the pancreas produces insulin but the body resists it.
- treated by OHA (oral hypoglycemic agents)
            *sulfonylareas: metformin, glucophage

Normal blood sugar level - 80-120 mg/dl

Hypoglycemia - low blood sugar level
causes: ommission of meals, overdose of insulin, strenuous activity
signs: tremors, cold clammy skin, hunger pangs, restlessness
tx: fruit juice (orange), candy, dextrose 50%

Hyperglycemia - high blood sugar level
causes: stress, surgery, overdose of insulin, overeating
signs: polyphagia (excessive starvation), polyuria (excessive urination), polydipsia (excessive thirst), kussmaul's breathing, fruity odor breath
tx: insulin, NSS + insulin

*Somogyi phenomenon - occurs when the patient took long-acting insulin at night and didn't eat any snack before going to bed. The blood sugar level will be lowered down while he/she is asleep. The body responds to this by releasing hormones to release glucose. The next morning the patient will have a high blood sugar level

*Dawn's phenomenon - usually at night hormones are released to trigger to liver to release glucose. If there is not enough insulin, the patient will suffer from hyperglycemia the next day

Shock - when there in inadequate blood and oxygen being delivered in the body

kinds:
1. hypovolemic shock - excessive blood/fluid has been lost
2. anaphylactic - due to allergy
3. septic shock - massive vascular collapse secondary to gm - infection
4. cardiogenic chock - when the heart functions inefficiently

nursing intervention: trendelenburg position to promote venous return and treat underlying cause


Post-op complications:
1. Hemorrhage - must be referred immediately for possible blood transfusion or return to OR for wound exploration
2. Post-op fever - might be due to infection
3. Infection - must be treated immediately with antibiotics
4. Atelectasis - may be due to airway obstruction because of broncial secretions. pre and post op physiotherapy should be done
5. deep vein thrombosis - poor blood supply. thrombolytics
6. delayed wound healing - wound dehiscense - may be due to extensive suture tension, malnutrition, poor blood supply. should put sterile gauze on wound and return to the doctor immediately

IV therapy:
- for patients with fluid and electrolyte imbalance
- cannot take food and fluids by mouth
- for emergency medications
- for pre and post op surgery and is NPO
- for critically ill patients

1. Verify order for IV therapy
2. explain procedure to the patient
3. prepare equipments: IV solution already with IV tubings, micropore, cotton, band-aid, IV catheter (g.18-19: BT and for surgery; g.20-22: adult; g.22-24:child)
4. find the best vein possible. straight and visible
5. ask the patient to make fist. taut the skin from where the vein is located
6. insert the IV catheter
7. observe for quick blood return
8. withdraw the stylet needle and advance the IV catheter
9. secure in place
10. connect the IV line and start the drip
11. document

Blood transfusion - transferring blood and blood-based products from one circulatory system to another.

1. Verify order for BT
2. Get patient's consent form
3. check for blood's compatibility
    - cross matching has been done
    - patient's name and name on the blood bag is the same
    - expiration date
4. check patient's VS to obtain baseline VS
5. prepare equipments: NSS, blood unit, y-tubing administration set with filter, g.18-19 IV catheter
6. gently invert the blood bag to mix the plasma with the RBC
7. attach the blood bag to the y-port and slowly start the drip (2-5 ml for 15 mins)
8. stay with the patient to determine any hemolytic reactions
9. check the patient's VS: every 5 min for 15 min, every 15 min for 30 mins, every 30 mins for 1 hour, then every hour
10. then increase the rate. should be consumed within 4 hours otherwise blood will deteriorate
11. after blood has been transfused, start the NSS
12. dispose bag properly
13. document


Chicken pox - varicella virus
 - can be transmitted through resp. route
 - after 2 weeks, vesicles will appear on the skin
 - crusts and scabs will be formed during the latter stage
 - *Reye's syndrome - common complication
            - has a higher incidence if aspirin is taken to reduce fever
            - brain dysfunction occurs

Shingles - recurrence of chicken pox
 - herpes zoster
 - usually on the lower back
 - may cause paralysis
 - acyclovir is the medication of treatment

Herpes simplex - human herpes simplex virus 1 and 2
  HSV 1:
  - usually occurs in the oral mucosa
  - cold/fever blisters
  - latent on trigeminal nerve ganglia (bet. face and neck)

  HSV 2:
  - through sexual contact
  - latent on sacral base ganglia

- both can be triggered by overexposure to UV rays, stress, and hormonal imbalance

Measles
- rubeola
- macular rash
- koplik spots (sign) - tiny red patches with white central specks on the buccal cavity

German measles
- rubella
- milder than measles


droplet - less than 1 m
airborne - more than 1 m


Hepatitis - any inflammtory disease on the liver

Hepa A - fecal oral route. contaminated food

Hepa B, D, E - sexual contact, infected blood transfusions

Hepa C - same as all


HIV - human immunodeficiency virus
AIDS - acquired immunodeficieny syndrome, latent stage

- can be transferred by sexual contact, blood transfusion, tranpslancental, breast milk, infected needles


Glasgow coma scale - objective measure used to describe patient's level of consciousness through eye opening, verbal and motor response. perfect score is 15

Eye opening:
4 - spontaneous eye opening
3 - by request
2 - to painful stimuli
1 - no response

Verbal response
5 - oriented to people, time, place
4 - engages in conversation but confused in content (disoriented)
3 - words are spoken but conversation not sustained (inappropriate)
2 - groans, evoked on pain
1 - no response

Motor response
6 - obeys command
5 - localizes painful stimuli
4 - flexion withdrawal, cannot localize pain
3 - decorticate (abnormal flexion)
2 - decerebrate (abnormal extension)'
1 - no response


walang tinginan yan.. haha sana isalba ako neto bukas! goodluck myself! I go girl!

How do you stop when you still wanted to go?

I am hurting. Still.

Eventhough I crack jokes, put up wacky faces, smile and laugh a lot, when I go home, I still cry. When I'm alone, I still cry.

And sometimes I think I'm overreacting but I can't help it. I don't want to cry but sometimes I just can't control my emotions.

I am human. I have feelings too.

I'm crying because I was hurt.

And I guess it's just normal.



Do I have to tell you that I'm still hurting because of you? Because I really wanted to.

Tuloy na tuloy na!

Tuloy na ako ulit sa April 8 papuntang Dubey.. hehe. Wala na kong ibang inaalala at hinihiling sa ngayon kundi sana makapasa ako sa exam ko sa 15.

Sana, sana talaga Lord. Nag-aral naman ako sa abot nang makakaya ko. Kaya lang Lord hindi ko na talaga kaya. Sakit na ng ulo ko po. Pero promise magrereview ulit ako pagdating ko dun. Sana patuloy Niyo po akong bigyan ng lakas ng loob, tiwala sa sarili, at linaw ng pag-iisip. Pasensiya na po Lord kung magulo talaga ako magdesisyon.. hahaha. Pero promise kapag nasettled naman na ako nang maayos sa Dubai, aayusin ko na rin po buhay ko. Hindi na ako magrereklamo sa trabaho (masyado), mag-iipon na ko ng pera, hindi na ko magshashopping (masyado), at maghahappy-happy with friends (masyado). Thank you Lord. Labyu!!! Amen :)

Excited na ako. 2nd chance ko na ito to have a work na in line sa profession ko, 2nd chance to work abroad, at 2nd chance to go to Dubai. Kaya dapat talaga pagbutihin ko na. Haaayyyy pressure ito!!!

5 days to goooooooooo!!!!